janaakickass

2009-09-11T18:40:00.001+08:00

im trying this.
janaa.tumblr.com

2009-09-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

attachment has been surprisingly interesting. got this apek, ask me to take for him new shirt cause wet. so i went out to take it. i come back, he was naked. hahaha. he wanted to also change the pants then never wait for me to come back and open it himself. so i had to run out back and take the pants before he get more exposed. HAHAHAHAHA.

so love is away to KL with his NS friends for 2 days. i so want to follow luhh. but sadly i cant. ouh ouh, love got the best platoon award. im sooooooo proud of him =D finally no more tekong for him. ahahaha.

& charlotte sayang, im so happy for you okeh. 09/09/2009 would be the day my bestfriend has a boyfriend. HAHAHAHA. yay! now can double date. set uhhh. no no triple luhh with rosy also(=

'sometimes when you know the person too well its hard when you expect the same. its not abt saying the words, but the action shown.'

2009-09-07T20:22:00.000+08:00

wow ehhh. sungguh wow sekali. i cant believe this.

&last saturday i went geylang with love and his family. i tell you it was damn pack, but the foods. aaahhhhhh. shiok luhhh. hahaha. cant wait for this sunday. im going there with the girls and im so sure charlotte's going to love the food. ahahaha.

&ty you know i know. ahhahaha. boleh ehh lupe. cant wait to see you tmr and also the rest.

2009-09-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

ATTACHMENT = exciting, yet leg tiring =(

2009-08-28T17:04:00.001+08:00

exams are over. and poor me i didnt have any plans today. so i went home straight. everyone seem to have plans and i didnt have any. i felt lost and alone at the point of time. well i guess not just at that time, but today. what made me think of this, was my friends. my old friends, we're not as close as we use to be. it seems to be further apart now. i know i have my poly friends, but you know what i mean right. & love is busy with ns, i feel so lonely. no where to go. it feels so apart.
='(

2009-08-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

tomorrow my last paper. Anathomy and Physiology, is giving me a headach. So much to memorise. Its like biology but HARDER. I guess after my last paper, am going home straight. no plans. char and rosy going to watch UP, which i've watch with love already.

aint karma a bitch.

2009-08-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

note to self:

STUDY!

2009-08-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

i watch the last episode of gossip girl.
chuck and blair got together at last! awwwww.
chuck: i love you too
bliar: *gasp*
kiss
Blair: say it again
kiss
Blair: no i mean it
chuck: i love you. *kiss* i love you 2, *kiss* i love you 3....*kiss* i love you
kisses.

i miss my baby. send him off today. we talk, i love it everytime we have this talk.
its like we're old friends sharing stories and nothing else matters. like just the two of us and no one else(=
&yes i love you dear.

2009-08-22T23:27:00.001+08:00

Its the start of ramadhan today. Happy fasting people!
im super shagged. i met love for awhile. he bought a tub of frolicks home for buke.
so cute luhh him(= heh. i didnt study today, shucks i just wasted my sunday.
i will start tmr. semangat already.
oh oh, just now i watch BOHSIA a malaysia movie. its really interesting.
its about mat rempit and the minahs all.
will be sending love off to tekong tmr.
2 more weekends and i'll have him to myself. HAHAHA.
(= (= (= (=

2009-08-18T11:32:00.004+08:00

it feels like everyone is gone. it feels like im alone and no one's there. sometime i cant help but have this feeling. its like everyone is part of something and me, im alone. im like excluded from everything. why do i feel this way sometimes?

i miss love and my nonaas.
i miss the feeling were it doesnt matter who we are and how we look like, everyone around us accept us for who we are. But its different now.

Went to love niece birthday party on sunday. i bought her a helium princess balloon, she feel in love with it instantly. ahaha.
& we bought new slippers for our self yesterday(=

2009-08-14T22:47:00.003+08:00

i went home early today. Didnt feel good. was breathless and i felt sick. So dad brought me to changi for a check up. Thank god, everything is fine. I should eat well and eat lots of iron im lacking so much in iron. My body's weak and so is my mind. Exams starts next friday, i hope i can manage myself to study and do well.

Loves booking out tomorrow! *grins* but i cant meet him. sigh. I hope sunday cannnn, oke.

I wonder why it's so hard to come around. you can go suck balls.

2009-08-13T23:29:00.003+08:00

he was away for field camp again. i've miss him. its hard to not having him around and not being able to reply my msgs. it was my fault, i couldnt be there when he wanted me. im trying my best to be good to both sides.

exam are next week. study week now. my brain's like cramp up now.

i cant wait to meet him.

do you know what sound alot like love?
you&me

2009-08-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

tomorow's my aap pratical.
hopefully i get all the parts right.
damn, there's so much words to memorize.
next week would be study break and then exams!!!!!
then attachment=( 3 weeks. so it means i'll spend my fasting month at cgh.

2009-08-06T23:18:00.001+08:00

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

2009-08-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

tired = stress = sleepy = frustrated = anxious
projects are due. and im finishing up the powepoint for pas. cits was hillarious, we did an advert. im finishing up cnp today, faster ahh char. last min meeting today, damn, 6pm to 8pm. mic mock test is either today or next week. Nsl practical is tmr, arrghhhh!! school starts at 3pm thank gwad there's time for me to get some things done. oh wait, cnp careplan due on wed. die die die. i slept like at 1 am to get some of it done and its still not done. School ended late yesterday and we still had to stay back to do the cits video. so yar reached home ard 9pm and i got started on my stuff asap. phew!

&i miss boyfriend. his having field camp for this week. so it means i cant sms or call him. its killing me.
but im glad anira's there to help. thank you babe! loveyou loveyou. &my other girls too.

lets start..................................

2009-08-02T17:50:00.001+08:00

=(
3 presentations due next week.
&only one is done. argh!
CNP essay is still not finish yet.
practical is on wednesday and exams are coming.
school always end late = no time to get things done.
last min meeting on wed, just great.

2009-07-30T00:07:00.003+08:00

super sad. love have guard duty on our anniversary, which is this saturday. i only get to see my man on friday and sunday. and then he's off to field camp for 4 days. which i cant hear his voice. argh! im sooooooooo going to miss him like karaaayyzzy luhhh.

2009-07-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

another day of dissapointment. things havent gone well with love. & today i couldnt take it and cried infront of my friends. today wasnt good at all for me and marie. hopefully it'll get better tmr for us. and marie dear, cheer up oke. you know we love you(= hopefully for mine to.

2009-07-26T19:38:00.002+08:00

last week was love 21st. he got quite a surprise for his birthday. hahaha. im not able to upload the pictures. something's wrong with my posting. haiya. school just started. and the following week is my practical exam =( save me please! i miss alot since i didnt go school for 4 days. and love has been so sweet to me. thanks for everything dear.

2009-07-15T17:21:00.001+08:00

aint she great. i feel so inspired. &hopefully be like her one day.

2009-07-15T16:19:00.002+08:00

Plans was cancel. anira is still sick. so i stayed home, again. i was thinking of getting love things, but then wati ended her class late today. i didnt want to go shop alone. so i just went to tamp mart to get the ingredients for cookies and i couldnt find the white chocolate chips=(

2009-07-14T18:47:00.001+08:00

im meeting anira tomorrow. going to get my shoe and maybe a few stuff for love(:

&i miss my nonaas.

2009-07-14T17:37:00.001+08:00

what do i get for a guy who is having his 21st birthday??

2009-07-13T10:22:00.002+08:00

im glad to be home. staying in the hospital wasnt great at all. i was isolated for 3 days and no one couldnt meet me. needles were everywhere. i felt so sick and lonely. and finally i was transfered to a normal ward. love came everyday without fail. in the morning when i woke up and at night when im gg to sleep. he's been really sweet, being there for me all the time. And to my girls and some guys who had been there going trough my vomitting during attachment. thanks you all. you guys are the best. and because of me, char and yusri got sick too. thank for always msging me to get better(: but i've yet to go school. i miss school. i'll be back to school on thursday hopefully.

2009-06-28T20:59:00.004+08:00

after work i meet love and his family at pasir ris. send him off back to camp. he look handsome in his unifrom. my man in uniform(: i was gg off, then his smallest niece who was afraid of everyone came to me and hug my leg. hahahaha. i carried her and she didnt even cry.

2009-06-28T19:58:00.008+08:00

Im back from ipoh. i know i updated late. but well im updating now, with pictures(: the trip was super fun. the activities we did really help to boost our confidence and help to over come our fears. i had a fear of height but after going trough the high elements i overcome it(:

you wont believe thats the toilet

thats where we slept

White water rafting.

the pictures are my group boat. our face were priceless. hahahaha

left abu in the boat. the rest of us got thrown in:(

PINNACLE ADVENTURE rope course.

Gua tempurung

Last day

2009-06-22T11:11:00.002+08:00

i have been busy last weekend. my cousin got married. super exciting. but was very tired, had my heels on the whole day. seeing everything, the groom coming over to the bride side with the performance and silat all. was super great and happening. how i wish it was me. hahaha. a few more years ehh love. my cousins came, but not all. was nice to see them. pictures and video will be upload later cause i have yet to pack my bag for the ipoh trip. damn its tmr and i have yet to get my clothes. im going out with mum later to get all the things, especially food!!

&i cant wait to see you love, 4 more days and i get to see him botak=)

2009-06-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

i have my eye candy on the first two shoes(:

& i want to get myself a high waist pants.

2009-06-14T20:53:00.003+08:00

oh gwad, i miss love so much. have been staying home ever since he had gone in. just dont have the mood to go out, really. he gave me his jacket to keep. how sweet right. and every night i can go home to sleep, smelling him and smelling like him. heeee(; tmr would be my interview at cgh just hopefully i'll get the bond. wish me luck! :D i cant wait for the ipoh trip with the girls. its so going to be exciting. white water rafting, going in to gua tempurung, hot springs, high aliments, hiking and SHOPPING! back to basic people. this coming week is going to be busy busy busy. i guess my whole week is pack, except for wednesday i think. maybe i can go out with the girls to buy the things on wednesday.

did i mention i went out with charlotte and her gfs on the 12th. we went to watch dance subaru. superb. we all cried. hahaha. we were like handing out tissues to one another in the movie. hanging out with them made me feel like i miss my own gfs. but, i know they dont need me anymore. it was just sad, the day bf had to go and hanging out with them reminded me so much of my past. how suddenly i felt everything i use to have and love was gone like that. its sad, i know. but still charlotte and her friends are great to hang out with, i had fun. oh yes, i would love to go out with you guys again(:

10 more days to meet my baby.

i love you soo much & each day i'll love you even more.

2009-06-13T08:58:00.002+08:00

First of all, im super confuse.
at the beginning you said this then you said that.
so what is the story really like?
& now it so obvious everyone of you guys are avoiding me.
i msg, i apologise no replies. so??
& oh, make me realise, but from what?
lastly what did i do to the other two, really and who is the we?
so many of my question not answered.
maybe its best i'll leave. i know thats what you all want, from the way you guys are avoiding me. or is this revenge? yea we've been trough alot but whats the point non of you want to talk to me abt this. no one is explaining and she's not replying.

love has gone to NS and im losing them. whats next?
its like........................

how i wish your still here, to keep me company. and still could have a part of the old me. i miss you
='(

2009-06-11T22:02:00.007+08:00

The last day before love had to go for two weeks.

Sentosa/cable car(my virgin ride)

After AAP paper at al-ameen

Eatzi

Dear, im going to miss you.

so much that i might start to tear now.

take care and remember im always waiting.

I love you

2009-06-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

I had AAP paper today. It was oke, managable. Im quite happy with it. So after the paper me and some few friends decide to eat at al-ameen near our school. simply delicious(: boyfriend came along and we sat there for 2 hours. was great.

Love bringing me to sentosa tmr. just the two of us(:
and one more day till the day comes.

2009-06-10T19:25:00.006+08:00

Memory lane

I miss my girls alot. Seen we've started school we seldom meet or not meet at all. Its like things are different now. And yes people change, in all sorts of way. cause i know i do change atleast a little bit. But to see a 5 years friendship going down the drain its sad. no i dont want that to happen. i want a nonaa outing just us the 4 of us, the girls. tell me when was the last we saw each other. its been like 92843647 years. oke maybe a few months. i know everyone is busy and all. we could atleast meet after school. we dont live that far from each otha. and dont say you dont have time for friends. yes study is study and i know we do have tons of project coming our way. but can we make a little effort for Nonaas? i miss you girls like crazy. its like we got into different school and we became strangers.

Remember

Remember how we use to have conflicts with each otha and no matter what. we talk things over and things got better. How one of us would have a really bad day, the rest would try to comfort each otha. and also when one of us got fever we would us wati thigh as a cushion(: remember when we were in sec 3, we would always go food culture just to have ice kacang and ended up with brain freeze. those times when we went to anira house to have cup noodle and watch movie. remember when you guys made me eat the egg tart and ended up vomiting it out. remember how the most smallest thing that happen can make us laugh non stop. remember the time when wati ran and hit the toilet door. remember how delicious was sue's cupcake and we could never stop eating. remember those times when we bought a tub of ice cream and ate under the block. remember how selenger anira can be and it was so fun to disturb her. remember all the crushes in school. the 3 or $10 watch. and the list goes on and on.

i miss you girls. &i love you girls like the stars in the sky.

2009-06-08T21:23:00.003+08:00

the paper wasnt that bad luhh. can manage, hopefully can pass luhh. Psychology & Sociology tmr starts at 6.30pm. so late, i'll be so sleepy luhh.

we had frolick yougurt! me+charlotte+frolick yougurt = damn shiok!

partners in crime, you know i know. hahahaha

P/s: im going to miss you like crazy boy, i wish you didnt have to go.

2009-06-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

i have been trying to study the whole day, oke weeks and i cant seem to be able to. i really hate having this mood when its exam week. blaady, hormonal thingy. 10 more hours to freaking FON paper. yikes!

2009-06-07T22:16:00.001+08:00

thank you eh,
your a very contradicting person.

stupid
stupid
stupid.............................

dont talk to me, thank you.

2009-06-05T00:06:00.007+08:00

Im super super tired. common test is just next week and i only got 3 days to revise everything. school started at 2pm today, cause there wasnt NSL. Dearest charlotte woke up late again. Lucky we werent late. Something happen in train. We saw this two china man from tamp mrt. So when we were about to drop at dover, charlotte told me then one of the china man said to her in chinese, pretty girl going already. hahahaha. i couldnt stop laughing. i guess you attract all those china and banglas luhh babe:D

My hardcore lover(:

i have exactly one more week to see love with hair. sometimes i wonder, why i can never get angry at you for so long. i love you(:

2009-06-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

i had my practical test today, so we had to wear our uniform. Sufian was my patient and lucky for me i had tpr, but i still miss ouy some steps. atleast i passed(: my exams are next week and i have yet to cover all the topics. I dont understand FON, atleast PAS i cant still understand even though i only got 1/10 for the quiz. damn hard luhh. cause i didnt study. heh.

i think its 'bring your boyfriend to lecture week' this week, cause some of the girls brought their bf/guy friend to lectures. i'll bring my luhh next time. hahaha.

love brought me to the beach today(:

oh oh & love brought me to watch alien vs monster in 3D yesterday. super great luhhh! i liiiiiiikkkkeeeee! :D

2009-06-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

We are 1yr 2months old today(:

We went trough so much & yet we are still us. i love you to bits.

& your always sweet like chocalote with coated candy on top.

2009-05-31T23:49:00.003+08:00

was suppose to meet charlotte at 2pm. but this girl woke up pretty late. while waiting for her to get ready i clean my room! I have been procrastinating to clean my room, and at last its clean.

damn happy=)

all clean! :D

so we met at 4pm and bought our shoes. went to her house to get her pants and got them altered. then went to my house, get the lappie and headed to tamp mart mac.

the other day, i saw one pot of LIVE sea snail in the kitchen. My mum always cook this dish with the sea snail i like it. But after seeing them alive in the pot, i never ate it.

Ouh darn, loves not home yet. he's out with his family for a one day trip to KL. i miss him:(

2009-05-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

After knowing what had happen. How i wish i never came in the picture. I know its better when it was just me and C. I still love L to bits(:

School was oke until i had to go to the ladies alot:( met my best boy at eunos, sorry you had to wait so long. I love spending time with him, even though he was tired and all. We still had fun talking. love him to bits. *hugs thank you for helping me with my report your the best. i'll treat you when i get my pay oke :D

Hopefully tmr would be a better day.

2009-05-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

lets go perth again(:

I finish my CITS report=)

no matter how much they try,

they can never beat you.

2009-05-23T16:27:00.003+08:00

how i wish i could turn back time and make things better. Didnt do what i did and made a terrible mistake. Hurting people along the way. Im not good in this at all. Why does it all have to happen? is god trying to tell me that i have to change. I guess i have been a terrible girl.

2009-05-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

facial bone

I miss bf already. 12 jun is coming so quickly. we'll try to meet as often okey dear. after 21 may, im going to see you almost everyday! :D

School has been, great actually. except for all those projects that need to be done. AAP is hard when it comes to all the memorising all the words.

2009-05-09T16:01:00.002+08:00

2009-05-09T15:16:00.002+08:00

Its as if i was the bad one.

2009-05-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

i know your the one.
& if i could, i would like to make you forever.
it seems i can never let go.
i love you(:

2009-05-04T22:02:00.004+08:00

School was fun, i have great friends. They really made me feel a whole lot better. telling me that things are going to be fine. i just hope so.

still got more pictures, i lazy to upload.

for that moment i thought we were infinite.

2009-05-03T18:47:00.002+08:00

There’s nothing I can say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain the tears they cry

Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go

I know I let you down but its not like that now

This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring

But now I see honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe cause your here with me

And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around

Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep

I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave

You’re all I got

You’re all I want

Yeah

And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do

I could never ever live a day with out you

Here with me do you see your all I need

2009-05-02T19:59:00.001+08:00

'Remembering Sunday'.

are we ready to be apart?
not me.

2009-05-02T00:57:00.001+08:00

Right now im so confuse. I still love him so so so so much, more then anything. Its not about love anymore, its about us making things work. Its been hard, i've been trying my hardest. But we never seem to come to an agreement. Its like when we're together everything is just oh so perfect and when we're not, something is always not right. why? im not sure myself. I want him, at the same time i want to able to do things i've always wanted to. I dont want to have to make a choice, cause i want both.

P/s: Farhan your the best thing that has happen in my life.

2009-04-28T23:08:00.003+08:00

im going to miss the boy hiding behined me.

i want to do something about my blog cause it super boring. but i cant think of anything now. anw, dad going to buy me a lappie, sungguh cant wait(: school started at 11am and ended at 2pm. super happy. cause today even week so we dont have mic practical today. i think im gg to be super happy for even weeks only. heh.

went to watch Friday the 13th. GROSS! not scary. just gross. And since its M18, there's alot of sex scene. and they like show their boobies. guys confirm like one. hahaha.

ouh, bf gg NS on 12 jun:( not looking forward. damn sad now. i guess i'll go back to writing my cnp journal. i cnt think, help! school starts at 8am. hopefully eaither me or charlotte's not late or we'll miss the bus.

playing risk during my 3 hour break tmr.

2009-04-25T15:07:00.003+08:00

Its already 3pm and love still havent reach yet. Im at mac tamp mall, everyone's like looking at me cause there's four chairs and im sitting alone. faster lei, i hungry also!!!

2009-04-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

It has been really tiring. every single day i reach home after 9pm. from like 6am or sometimes 7 am i wake up and the whole day stretch until night. i think im gg to have panda eyes soon. ugly. with school starting, the first few weeks its always like hard to juggle things. And the boy felt lonely, i dont blame him tough. we'll figure things out.

Just found out love gg in NS on Jun which i think its less then 2 month. How freaking fast is that, 2 months. Just thinking about it makes my eye tear already. Dont worry love, i'll spend most of my free time with you oke(:

im super sleepy & i miss diana, should have followed us play Taboo, super FUN!
P/s: i didnt eat the whole day until just now, ate just one piece of popeyes chicken and i felt full.

2009-04-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

what you told me, what you said.
i couldnt help it but just cry, it hurts so deep too deep to even discribe how much it hurts.
i tried and i failed. i cant do nothing but just wait and see.
school starts, it almost ended.
:'(

2009-04-18T10:31:00.003+08:00

HOLA! i got back from camp yesterday. and the day before i got my induction day. i made new friends. Lisa, Marie and Diana. But we got separated in different groups in camp. it suck, really. Lisa was sweet, i was tired the first night. so after all the games we went back to our room and just went to sleep( my group only). the light was all off when it suddenly went bright. Lisa came in and pass me a macdonal paper bag then ran out. hahahaha. she wrote something like 'Jana!! saw you super tired, hope this will make you smile. Happy supper. xoxo, lisa' super sweet luhhh. there was a double cheese burger inside. hahaha. i couldnt stop smiling.
the second day we had wet and dirty game. the wet games was oke luhh, we got all wet from top to bottom. i tell you the dirty game was the WORST. there was mud, rojak paste, tooth paste, tomato sauce, butter and the cincalok(i think thats how its spelled) we had to either lay on them and get all of that stuff on our body or have to crawl in it. we all STINK! and it was hard to get all that stuff off. the last day was SUPER, we had a cheer fight against freshmen and seniors. Me, lisa and marie went up to help lead, diana didnt cause she didnt know what was going on. hahahahaha. so the people who volunteer to help had to stand infront. when we start with the cheer the senior start pushing us and all. and everyone was holding on to each otha. still our chain got broke. cause i senior damn big luhh. and my group won the best dance performance and we got a chance to perform for some event next thurs.

oke so thats it for my camp and oh, one last thing, the food suck.

i really miss boyfie even though i met him yesterday. i was really worn out yesterday and wanted to get home early. so i guess i'll just meet him today since he ends work at 3. want to surprise him?? hmmmmmmm...........................

Marie and me start same timing, and lisa and diana start same timing. hopefully our break is the same. P/s: i miss anira.

2009-04-09T20:58:00.002+08:00

My aunt lend me her camera, took lots of pictures on the 7th. BUT, she didnt pass me the USB so i cant upload the pictures. bummer! i'll find a way. tampines 1 is open today, lots of shop and there's also TOPSHOP(((: i miss the boy already. i dont know when im able to see him. sucks! would be going to nenek house tmr to celebrate her birthday and after which would heading the east coast for a family bbq pit. cant wait to see alllll my niece and nephew(:

P/S: call me soon dear, i cant wait to hear your voice. kiter rindu you!

:D

2009-04-05T20:31:00.003+08:00

Im dead beat. Work has really drain the energy out of me. i know, its not everyday but hey its still penat okey. With going out and work and going and work. i must stop complaining. the boy doesnt like it :p anyhoosss, im getting my pay tmr which also means, love gg to get the present soooooooooon. cant wait kan, cant wait kan. i know(; i also cant wait. would be super busy this coming week. lots of outing. and also the following week and another week. cause camp and school starting. im not looking forward for school. firstly, its freaking far, CLEMENTI! tampines to CLEMENTI!!!!!!!!!!! die uhh die uhhh. secondly, i wont be able to see my boyfriend alot. if only school was near i can atleast go lunch with him=( =( bummer! nk sngt school jauh. dapat uhh kau. sadded.

I cant wait for the 7th, girls day out at last! yay! movie, shop, eat, taboo, gossip, camera!

i so need to go out with the boy. i dont care we're going to have a date!!(:(:(:
&i sayang you=)=)

2009-04-03T16:09:00.002+08:00

Im not like them and i would never want to be like one of them. I happen to have read something which made me realise how childish they are for their age.

2009-04-02T19:30:00.002+08:00

i should have post this yesterday. but i had to work the whole day yesterday and by the time i got home i was really shagged. Yesterday marks our ONE YEAR of being together. yea april fool, and we're the fool who feel in love with each otha(: And thank you ira for the sweetest post.

i still remember, our very first date. A very memorable one. Step up 2.

We didnt plan anything today. MY initial plan was to stay home and go for a jog in the afternoon. since boyfriend said he didnt want to stay home and didnt have any plan with his friends. he ask me out for a movie, which i get to choose and didnt have to pay for( i know, i very tak tau malu). lol. so we went to watch shopaholic. GREAT movie, VERY funny. rate it 4/5. he also buy for me bubble tea. i'll belanja you soon kay baby(:

2009-03-31T22:28:00.004+08:00

the other day i was otw back home, boyfie send me a mms. so cuteeeeeee!!!

your boyfriend(:

with also the caption. so cute right! i like his new style.

i love you baby! one year in 1 hour time.

2009-03-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

im like becoming so lazy this days. Havent been helping around the house lately. Had store meeting today at our store room. well, its huge okey! so bla bla bla. ended at around 8 plus. then went to eat at popeyes.

i havent been keeping myself updated with Gossip Girls episodes. So now is the time. Episode 18 and 19 is out:D

so IRRITATING uhhhhh!!!

2009-03-26T21:45:00.014+08:00

I've been out alot this days. Its really tiring and exhausting. I let love listen to nobody by Wondergirls and he feel in love with the music video. hahahaha. so i went out with the girls today. well actually to accompany sue for her break. So i met waty and ira first, it took them to get ready so loooooonnnnggg. as usual thats them. with them it makes me realise how much i miss all of them, US hanging out and talk crap. And 'i suke you'. hahahaha.

Pictures from long time ago till now.

its today pictures. i've yet to get my gf pictures cause its with anira. i look very different, BECAUSE i got make up on. which i dont usually pon on that much when i go out. so the girls tried it on me. mcm experiment gitu. AND i suke you. hehehehe

i went out with love and friends. I love playing taboo! or what nurin calls it 'tebu'. hahaha

2009-03-22T21:15:00.007+08:00

All the presents love got me for my birthday.

& the last one was a helmet! (:

bike license soooooonnnnn..................................

i've already registered for my driving liscense. the theory test would be on 23rd april. hopefully i'll pass.

its hard to gather all my gf together, even though there's only four of us. But no matter what they're still close. cause they're always there when i need them. thats what counts, not the outings.

and you know and i know who i hate right now. typical.

2009-03-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

vulnerable.

2009-03-15T15:19:00.003+08:00

I'll be back so soon you wont have time to miss me. Look after my heart - i've left it with you.

Page 95, Eclipse.

my heart feels tight and its getting harder to breath. i dont know why this is happening. i hate having this feeling. its as if something bad is going to happen. And it frustrate me alot cause i dont know what is going to happen.

its getting harder to breath..........

2009-03-11T21:00:00.002+08:00

on the 7th went to love family chalet. celebrate his niece 1st birthday. very adorable. And i had fun spending time with his family and cousin. Mum told him to send me home before 9.30pm. Went to watch kude kepang near my block with my fam and him.

And yesterday, we went out to bugis. watch Watchmen, HORRIBLE show! two hours and it was torture.

At times you want to the girl he wants you to be. You want to be the perfect girlfriend. But then you dont want to be what your not but be whom you are. So i told myself i am what i am, so accept me for whom i am(:

Ps: the second present he gave me was the New moon book, which i wanted to get. And he said "there's another present for you next week". i sungguh cant wait! :D

he loves to spoilt me(: and this week i've been such an ass and he's been such a sweetheart.

2009-03-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

2009-03-04T13:52:00.002+08:00

I've got the best girlfriends and the best lover. They made everything seem perfect for me. Love you guys. I'll be resting at home today. Im too tired to go out, plus i've got work tmr. Which starts at 7am. Love's out with his sec friends. I just wish yesterday would repeat all over again.

I love my boyfriend, and he loves to spoilt me(:

2009-03-03T23:04:00.006+08:00

My 18th was a blast. Love, made a surprise birthday for me. So this was what happened.

Love told me to meet him at one, and we were suppose to take the bus cause it was raining. But then he told me he'll be abit late cause he wanted to top up his bike oil. so he ask me, to wait until he tell me to go out. And then he called and i went to meet him. We were walking to another direction instead of the bus stop, so i ask him where we were going. he just said he got something for me. So upon reaching the place, he ask me to close my eyes. so we reach under the void deck where we usual sit. He open my eyes and SURPRISE! everyone was there even wati and anira. I cried, really badly cause it was really unexpected. And there was cupcakes on the table, YELLOW cupcakes!!!! Thats was the very best part of my birthday the SURPRISE. Then we headed to tanah merah resort to play bowling. Love treated all of us. Yea i know birthday girl was broke. hehe. And something happen, i drop the bowling ball while trying to throw them. can you imagine everyone was laughing at me.(face was red) wati,anira and liyana had to go. so after bowling we went to eat, then to ehub for a game of taboo. it was my virgin game. kental right. but I really had a great time palying the game with them. so yea, that was my birthday. i couldnt ask for more. it was simply the best among all my other birthdays(:

to the guy who made everything happens, thank you so much. You've made my 18th and really wonderful one, with the surprise, cupcakes, dress, the flower necklace and the other 3 more present which you dont want to tell me yet.(i cant wait) i couldnt ask for more. you've given what i've always wanted. the surprise. seeing how people get surprises on their birthday, i cant believe i got mine today.

Thanks to those who came:Anira,wati,liyana,gg,safi,nurel,both khai,nadzrul,hady,and another 3 guys which i forgot the name. and whoever i didnt mention(:

i didnt take pictures cause i was too caught up with the surprise and crying. hahaha

2009-02-28T21:44:00.002+08:00

It really fascinate me to see how people change. Like you known them since they're still wearing diapers. And then you don't see them, for like a few years. when you suddenly see them boom they changed. Like a whole lot. Sometimes i get tired of being the good girl like what people always call me. And it gets frustrating. i hate having curfews, i dont like it cause i cant do graveyard shifts at work or even finish at 11pm and go home on my own, i hate having to always be a good girl. urgh!

Love, how about getting our tongue pierced together. hahahaha.
on my 18th birthday. how? oke peer. hahaha. my friends would go mental.

A new janaa on her 18th. maybe?

2009-02-28T00:07:00.004+08:00

I've been procrastinating to clean my room. Today i did it, at last. Got the table out and clean the dusty fan. Going Ikea soon, to get myself boxes and a new cupboard to store my stuffs(: I need a new wardrobe, my clothes are limited and same goes for my bottoms. I did the enrolment thingy. Atleast some part of it is done.

i was unconditionally in love with him

2009-02-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

A girl can forgive, but she can never forget how much it hurts.

2009-02-25T15:28:00.013+08:00

im seriously shagged. Last week has been tight. Had work, outing, meeting, dates. And same goes for this week. I need my rest. so i just upload what i have and you guys figure it out. Oh, date with boyfie no pictures cause i forgot to take them. silly me(:

ouh ouh, yes. the boy and me, we're in good terms already:D im so so happy, yay us! i love you Farhan. Like what they said at work the other day Farhanlove! hahaha.

Outing and meeting. I scored two goals. GO JANNAH! and i sprain my ankle. now my ankle very huge:(

that day at work, we called it the high pitch day. cause everyone was talking/screaming at high pitch. funny.

2009-02-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

kerana bersama mu diri ku sempurna

2009-02-16T20:33:00.006+08:00

love?

"Yesterday when I touched you, you were so.. hesitant, so careful, and yet still the same. Because I've hurt you too much? Is it because you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be.. quite fair. I won't contest your decision. So don't try to spare my feelings. Please just tell me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything I've done to you. Can you?".

i got this from dorcus blog(i copy2 kay. heh)

New moon.

i have great friends. They're there always making me feel better. Today i woke up, not the feeling of lost i felt, instead i felt unlove. The heart suddenly stop a beat and i started crying so badly. i couldnt fall asleep back and the night before i couldnt sleep either. I had to sleep with the light on, i felt scared. i only slept for about 3 hours. I didnt want to wake up i wanted to just sleep and never wake up or just hoping that everything is just a dream. i wish.

i went to work giving my best smile, but rynne could tell i was sad. i told her and she made me feel safe. Not just her, but with the people i work with today. with them i felt safe. felt i belong to someone. fiza told us about her relationship what she went trough for the 5 years. She said that if we are sure that he's the one regardless of what obstacle we go trough we'll be patience. And haziq told me that if yesterday was bad, today would be good. yes it was, i got a compliment from a customer for making a perfect latte. i was please with myself. but i couldnt deny, i was missing him. the thought of him would suddenly come up and i'll feel a lump in my throat. i hold back my tears.

But i cried going home. I couldnt take it. i didnt understand, i miss him so badly.

Farhan dear,
im not perfect. Im not an angel. Im not too good for you. I have my flaws and so do you. It cant be the reason. i have so many question to ask. But i cant bring myself to and i know you wouldnt answer it. i love you, still alot. i've not finish yet, loving you. It isnt enough. why are you always confuse? that, i dont understand. you, yourself knows that what is happening is hurting me. if it wasnt easy for tyou hen why do it? i want to back away and see how you lead your life without me. but i guess i was the one who cant. you want me to find someone better? among all the guys i've known your better off then them. what makes you think that your hurting me alot? i hurt you too, i know. and your a good guy and i want to be with this good guy(you). i know i cant force love. i dont even know why im doing this.

Oh god, im hurting so badly now. Im not angry at him i never was. i just wanted to be the best girlfriend he has. but i guess...........

my cousin, he's been there listening to my cries and he was and is the one who is always making me understand. He's a guy so he'll knows. And i always feel much better talking to him. cause everytime i tell him what happen i'll laugh in the end. i love him, yea my cousin. you know who you are*winks*

2009-02-14T23:22:00.010+08:00

i love Kate Nash. her songs, her hair, the way she dresses. she plays the guitar too luhh.

dont you guys agree? :D

Pen Badgley

is totally HOT!

i find guys who's innocent but not really that innocent are hot.

like him, in Gossip Girl.

get it? go figure. hahaha

Spend my saturday with Nabila, was great! we had late lunch at far east did abit of shopping, abit only. in the end we shop right nabila. we got the same belt and its freaking cheap and its super nice. haha. went to dhouby ghout, bought brownie. i surprise love with a heart shape brownie. so cute luhh the brownie. then we went tm to talk and talk. pictures.....

im jealous of nabila hp, its sidekick. the one i've always wanted.

to those who watch GG, its the same as Blair phone.

2009-02-12T14:54:00.002+08:00

i've been waking up really late this days. Dad has not been really happy about it and so does mum. Every morning they try all kind of things to make me wake up, but none of it seems to work. Like for example sprinkle water on face, pinch me, off the fan or just simply pull my leg. hahaha. but it never work. i think im getting lazy by the day, no no seconds.

i've got work today which starts at 5pm and i end at 1am. its going to be sooo tiring. i wonder who's the manager. Anira is also working today and she finish right about now, 3pm. She forgot to bring the mag!!!!! im soooooo going to kill her luhhh*evil smile*

2009-02-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

today was great. we had the cinema all to ourself. seriously no kidding.
im hungry gg to eat honey star + milk + Gossip girl = Jannah happy(:

im not finish loving you

2009-02-10T20:15:00.003+08:00

the headache is torturing me!
i hate taking the bus, it always gives me headache especially when im really really really tired.

i just cant wait for school to start. NP, yeah!
i guess im the only one in my school going there.
Well i know one person who's going there, Mike.
And ouh, mike and erdie was so happy just now, cause they got to work together.
Like gay uhhh. hahahaha.

i met anira after work and we wanted to spy on sue, but then she was having lunch.
so instead we disturb her at food culture.
i met boyfie for awhile. gawd, i miss him!
i only got a hug but it wasnt really a hug was it? hahaha. go figure.

2009-02-08T22:48:00.010+08:00

This is my new baby and its just 1 year old. i got it in pink cause there was no stock for the white and black colour. The best part of this phone is that the camera is 5 mega pix and very very good. Love was like so jealous luhh. hahahaha. The way to type msg also cool cause can type like keyboard.And i've watch bride wars. Its so funny luhh. How two friends can like fight over wedding. But the ending part was like sad. i cried, just tears in my eyes and love make it a big deal like i cried so badly. We ate at deliffrance which cause us $45+.

you can see there's no picture of me right. i like taking pictures but not of myself. hahaha. my hp camera good right :p

I LOVE YOU baby!

2009-02-07T13:03:00.002+08:00

The closer we get with someone. The better we know them. And thus go trough alot with them. The happy, angry and sad moments. It'll teach us more about one another and we then will grow closer. Sometimes it gets really hard and you'll get to the point where you feel like giving up or just that you aren't good enough. But in fact giving up and all just shows your weak and you cant take a challenge.

i told myself to hold back the tears and go trough all this with a lot of faith

The bits and pieces of a relationship.

2009-02-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

Its MEREPEK!
i HATE it.
i dont tolerate getting SWEAR at of even lie at!

2009-02-06T20:45:00.002+08:00

just great. blame me. make me feel as if i did something so sinful.
i just hope i dont give up, like you.
to the point when i couldnt take it anymore, im sorry.

2009-02-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

I didnt get the course. I found out yesterday, they said it was unsuccessful. I was sad and i cried badly. (oke bedek not so badly just a few drop of tears) :( but still. haiya.

Some facts about me. Sometimes when i dont smile or give any emotion doesnt mean im not oke. Im fine perfectly fine, just that my face when i dont smile, i give this stress up face. i cant help it. And i know the if people dont know me, they'll assume im arrogant. i know, cause i get this alot from people. And again i cant help it, thats the way i am. So yar, when you see me at work not smilling, doesnt mean im stress up, tired or angry. And someone belanja me today, cant say who. hahahaha.

i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday( i got a date with baby(:)
And also saturday which is tmr.
cause im getting a new HP!!!!!!!

Got my pay today. I guess i wont spend so much. Just things which are important. And maybe on a few clothes. heee

2009-02-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

Is it me or is it just the attitude that is making me so irritated and angry. im not so sure myself. im angry, sad and disappointed with the situation. Im trying my best to understand whats going on. But then its getting to me. the way things are. seriously im heart broken. i know i have to talk, but not now, not with the current situation.

Secondary school has ended and i guess everything else that comes together with it also ends. Leaving all good memories behind, its hard. Some are still together with me. And sue, thanks for listening.

2009-02-02T18:15:00.002+08:00

Im human, everything is never good enough for me. When i was younger i never did well in school. As i grew up i realised what i wanted for my future and to give back to the community. I started to improve and it was good, i felt good. but then it wasnt enough i wanted the best, to be at the top. i did manage to get to the top, but only for awhile. And now with me not getting the course i want i feel that im ungrateful. Alhamdulilah, i got a place in poly and also something similar to what i want. But for me its not the school its the course. I have to accept the fact if i dont get the course. I could start from the basic and climb up to the top slowly. But if the DAE results shows that i got in the course i want, i am going to accept it. I know what i want and what i want to be. Its either i start from the starting line or the middle. Either way im going get my dream.

I'm glad i have baby to help me trough. I'm like going trough alot of shits right now.

2009-02-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

i stayed home the whole day today. I didnt meet baby today, he got work and study date with his buds.(sound so gay. hahaha) early in the morning isa called asking if i could work today from 11 to 5pm. i said no, cause i was really sleepy and my mind didnt really registered. then when i was really awake i regreted saying no. so i stayed home the whole day. i finish my book! yay me. so i'll return them tmr and borrow another book. im a book addict(:

And ouh you guys would want to know which school im posted to, right.
although its my second choice im not happy with it.
Ngee Ann, Health Science(nursing).
i dont want to go around cleaning patience ass. ( cause i've heard from friends who took up nursing)
so im still waiting for my DAE and hopefully i'll get my
Food and Nutrition course in, Temasek poly.
if i dont, i'll just have to love the course i get and be grateful.
work hard and then find my way into being a dietician.
like what boyfie said, be grateful cause some of them cant even get into poly.

Its our 10th monthsarry.

I love you and now this is my 10 reasons why i love you:

1. Your you

2. you always make me feel special

3. you never stop loving me

4. your wonderful

5. i always feel im apart of you in every way

6. i feel safe with you

7. your my lover, my bestfriend and my everything

8. because i know your my prince

9. cause your like this superhero whose always there to save me.

10. lastly, your my angel.

I dont think its time yet. when everything is fine i'll tell you.

2009-01-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

i've made oreo cheese cake and chocolate muffin. i didnt take any pictures cause was too caught up with the mixing. haha. And another thing, love gg to ns in jun:( so fast! tmr will be the day i know which school i'll be in. hopefully i get my first choice.

2009-01-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

zabid brought his friend dslr, D70 with lens lagi to work. so when i came, dorcus was like fiddling with the camera. like nob gitu. then suddenly the screen went blank. she like freak out luhh. turn out battery flat. hahaha. faliq was also like nob luhh. he took everyone's pictures, nk step good photographer. but then want to take my picture i cant move for like ten sec. so long uhh. hahaha. well i also like jakun, fiddle-fiddle with the camera. i want the pictures. soon soon.

picnic with family and cousin tmr. girlfriends coming, just sue and anira. well i hope tmr would be fun.

1 more week baby(:

2009-01-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

i thought it was stupid to get angry. but then when it happen back at me. i know the shitty feeling that I'm having now. when suddenly your heart stops, it became tighter and its hard for you to breath. And now, when i think it back. why am i being so selfish? i realise, it was unfair to the both of us.

But the important thing is trust. i trust you, you trust me. And sometimes the feeling of being scared can just come anytime and we have to overcome it. not let it take over us, and then make a lot of assumptions.

2009-01-20T14:46:00.030+08:00

pictures, celebrating sue 18th birthday. sudah LEGAL! :D

the funny moments( sue had to went home early )

2009-01-20T14:24:00.002+08:00

im bored staying at home. i do have a job. but then this week im only working for only two freaking days luhh. quick time move faster caaaan. i told dad i wanted to get that something ( only anira and baby knows). then he said when he has enough, he'll buy it for me. hopefully he'll buy it for me soon. i cant wait. and my pay is in one week time and the girls and me are going shopping!

tmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmr i cant wait(:

2009-01-16T22:22:00.002+08:00

9 hours of working im dead beat now. had 2 hours of sleep. its still isnt enough. well ive got a whole day to sleep tomorrow. provided, i have no plans. i've yet to finish up my book, only a few pages and its taking me so long. whats not, have been working and i get to tired to read. i read half way then fall asleep. in the morning i wake up the book is under the bed. haha.

love and i, we're great now. cause i know love cant resist not being with me. right dear. [ nie dah self proclaim. enough jannah(:] he's sick now, but he still goes to work. this boy uhh. dont know what to say anymore. we met up yesterday before i met up with my girls. and i had fun spending time with him=)

the girls were awesome, yesterday. we had lunch a Seoul garden and sue brought along Harith. so cute, walk like gangster. hahaha. so we ate and there were alot of left overs. then came the surprise. we bought sue a birthday cake. she was so touch, but didnt cried. she say, she dont show people her emotion. apee jeee sue. bnyk bedek! sue had to went home early so the 3 of us, sat at mac. we were like going bonkers. took alot of pictures and we laugh mcm nobodys world. there's too much pictures and im lazy to upload now. later later kay.

2009-01-14T20:14:00.003+08:00

my post would be a sad one. so bare with it.

Have you ever had a moment, when suddenly everything that you have ever wanted gone just like that. And you have this empty feeling inside yourself? im having that moment. At times i know why and sometimes i just dont understand why does this happen. Whose fault is it? me, you, them, us. it was never about another person. is it worth it to leave a person you love so much because your afraid you'll hurt them in the long run? but what about those whose been together for years and years. dont they have to over come all this, why cant us? why cant you? im willing to. do you? running away from the person you love makes it harder for the both of you. the person you run a way from is trying to learn you, understand you. but you just walk off half way. it isnt fair is it? your afraid of hurting or you just cant deal with reality? which? both? i want to make this better, but you are running away far from me. please just stay cause walking away is going to make it hard.

im not ready to lose someboday or end it. cause i still feel that this is still the begining of a beautiful rs.

2009-01-13T14:46:00.004+08:00

the boy

i pass my O's. yearp i did. L1R4 = 19. but im not satisfied with my results. i failed science, so im not able to get the course i've wanted. but there's still alot of other choices. just hopefully i get in sp, nutrition, health and wellness course. insyaallah.

everything is crumbling, i dont know why its happening. i just dont know how to tell you. hopefully, everything im going to say comes out right. im sorry. insyaallah, we'll make it trough together. i love you, still. alot.

2009-01-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

i wish my life was different. not the people but just how much freedom i get. yeah, i have a curfew. my parents, they're strict. but i know i cant change any of it. i hate thinking of whatifs, cause i know it'll never happen. give it a few years, what, like when im 50. sometimes i hate it so much. every teenagers does. but then when we grow up and become an adult. we'll thank them for it. i think. but for now i hate it, i really really really really really do. people ask, why cant you go out at night or i wish you could go out at night. i want to, but i cant. its really saddening sometimes.

results on Monday, i think. good luck jannah. hopefully you'll get less then 20. ( its call self motivation, i think(: ) im getting weirder. i look like shit at work every time. wake up and smell the coffee luhh jannah! smile and dont give that fuck up face. i've lost abit of the jannah magic, who laugh like nobodys there and talk as if its her own house. i've lost it.

2009-01-05T12:51:00.002+08:00

phew! what a weekend. im so drain out. on saturday i started work at 3pm and anira ended at 3pm. so i get to meet her for awhile. i did bar, and the people there were friendly. arina was nice. she's like always there to guide me. i didnt like yesterday even though i was working from 9 to 3 only. still, some are so arrogant. tk suke. i had to do POS, which shortage of 5 bucks. bummer! i dont like doing anything that has to do with money. what do you expect right, this is work. i cant wait to finish off at t2 and go to t1. one more day and im done. thank god!

i wonder when the results are coming. some say 9th, 15th, 26 luhh. im also not sure. i just hope that i get enough points to get in the course i want. FOOD SCIENCE. i want to be a dietitian.

im glad that nothing serious happen to love dad. he had an accident yesterday. you see this is the reason why i hate people who drinks. they dont think of others, just themselves. so selfish and see what happens. they get other people injured and plead not to get reported. typical.

And oh love, study hard oke. be a good boy. a few more months and you'll get your diploma. NS is coming soon, im so going to miss you. For this month we're planning to eat at i forgot-the-name. we plan every month to eat at a place which is NICE. i've yet to get my pay dear. it'll be next month. so long:( anyho, I LOVE YOU.

2009-01-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

i have lots of pictures to upload. but all the pictures are with love. so its either he'll upload(which would take him forever to upload) or me, when i get the pictures. im hooked to this book, 'a hopeless romantic' by Harriet Evans. i borrowed it from the library. ive yet to know the ending. if your the type who loves to read love stories, you've gotta love this book. its about this lady Laura, she's hopeless romantic. she'll fall in love with any guy and say he's the one. but, ending up getting hurt. so got herself in a mess with Dan whom she tot was the one and he ended up having a pregnant girlfriend. so she decide to go on a holiday with her parents, where she met a sexy and mysterious Nick. Nick is a marquess. he's a multi-millionaire and has a beautiful house. which she didnt know at first. he has a house like in a fairytale, where there's a ball room. so i've yet to know if she's going to be with Nick or not. But i know she's already in love with him. so exciting right. i know!

i love reading. it really brings me to another world. So exciting i can feel my adrenaline rush. hahaha. im going back to my other world. im so dreamy, but i love it.

i love you baby. with you it seems like a fairytale.

2008-12-31T20:24:00.002+08:00

today would be the last day of 2008. in a few hours times it'll be 2009 and our 9th monthsarry. spend my day with love, we catch a movie. which i was late( i know love im always late kaaan ), so we ended up having to get the first row. twilight was a very exciting,interesting yet romantic movie(: some parts i wanted to cry, BUT i didnt.

this year have been different. im just glad that love and i are still together, despite going trough lots of stuff this year. yea lots of shit. we've put it all behind and starting the new year fresh. i've been going trough a lot of things even tough i was taking my o's.

girlfriends issues, every year we four go trough it. but it helps to bond us closer right girls. its harder now, with us not going to the same school anymore. we wont be able to see each other much. but i'll be seeing anira more, you see we're working at the same place. so it means i'll see her most of the time. i just hope that when 2009 comes, we'll be much closer.

i dont know how im going to talk to you. and i know i should. but you see, im not good at talking and things that i want to say wont come out the way it should be. this year has been the biggest fight we ever had. i was angry, and i didnt tell you why i was. i didnt know how to. since its the new year, why dont we sort it all out only the two of us and start a fresh. deal?