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hello humans. Each to his/her own dreams. And mine is to be a pro acoustic guitarist. i know mcm paham right. but some how since the very first time i played the guitar ive got this feeling that my dream will only be just a dream. i know, people always say if you really want it you have to really WANT it and go all out for it. but with my tight schedule and stuff. i dont really have time for it. but i never fail to play my guitar every single day. for now i'll put my focus on my O's and get it done. 4 more month to go minus the jun holidays. i cant believe i only have 4 more months to go. panic!

ive got back the results for MYE. wait! before i tell you about my results. let me tell you what happen during assembly just now. everyone was sitting at their own classes waiting for the rest to come. the funny thing that happen was, this sec 1 guy just started shouting for no particular reason. he stop and shouted again. HAHAHAH. i guess he got scared to get his results. HAHAHA. lets get back to my results. i flunk all my subjects. oke im exaggerating. i pass chem like for the first time *putting my hands up and start to jump* but total up for science i fail. biology was hard. and the funny part about biology is that, our teacher told us what ridicules ans we wrote. zamir wrote, the question was what kinda of fruit seeds is dispers by wind and he wrote papaya. HAHAHAHA. how can papaya seeds be dispers by wind. then qaiyum said, you need tsunami uhh like that. HAHAH. funny seyh. math was rather disappointing, guess what, the only person who pass was anira and she got only 50/100. how pathetic. *sigh*

when school started, almost all my friends was talking about mother's day. and what present they bought for their mum and stuff. but i didnt get anything for mum. but i do love my mum yes i do, a hell lot. mum and i dont really talk alot and i dont really share much stuff with her. sometimes when i listen to my friends and how close they are with their mums. i just wish me and my mum was like that. isnt it just wonderful to have a mother and daughter bonding. i know my mum have alot of stuff to worry about, with my sisters and stuff at home. i dont know how to really say it, but im really thankful for what she have done for us, even though we can sometimes give her alot of trouble. especially me, ive disappoint her and ive not been a really good daughter. ive dont alot of mistake and have really hurt her alot. i really dont mean it but im just a teenager who still have alot more to learn. i just cant see her get hurt and im trying my best to not hurt her anymore. i feel like crying while typing this post. *sobs* *sobs*

boyfriend got pist with me. it was my fault. i really miss him alot. we didnt talk much and only get to meet him for awhile yesterday. when everything seems to go smoothly there's always a part where everything turns sour and we jut dont talk or sms. like yesterday and today. i feel like im being such a bad girlfriend. well at least he's oke now and hopefully things will get better. i'll pray hard. *close eyes*

p/s: seth dear i really miss you alot. and please stay close, dont go. ily!

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