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zabid brought his friend dslr, D70 with lens lagi to work. so when i came, dorcus was like fiddling with the camera. like nob gitu. then suddenly the screen went blank. she like freak out luhh. turn out battery flat. hahaha. faliq was also like nob luhh. he took everyone's pictures, nk step good photographer. but then want to take my picture i cant move for like ten sec. so long uhh. hahaha. well i also like jakun, fiddle-fiddle with the camera. i want the pictures. soon soon.

picnic with family and cousin tmr. girlfriends coming, just sue and anira. well i hope tmr would be fun.

1 more week baby(:

i thought it was stupid to get angry. but then when it happen back at me. i know the shitty feeling that I'm having now. when suddenly your heart stops, it became tighter and its hard for you to breath. And now, when i think it back. why am i being so selfish? i realise, it was unfair to the both of us.

But the important thing is trust. i trust you, you trust me. And sometimes the feeling of being scared can just come anytime and we have to overcome it. not let it take over us, and then make a lot of assumptions.

pictures, celebrating sue 18th birthday. sudah LEGAL! :D

the funny moments( sue had to went home early )

im bored staying at home. i do have a job. but then this week im only working for only two freaking days luhh. quick time move faster caaaan. i told dad i wanted to get that something ( only anira and baby knows). then he said when he has enough, he'll buy it for me. hopefully he'll buy it for me soon. i cant wait. and my pay is in one week time and the girls and me are going shopping!

tmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmr i cant wait(:

9 hours of working im dead beat now. had 2 hours of sleep. its still isnt enough. well ive got a whole day to sleep tomorrow. provided, i have no plans. i've yet to finish up my book, only a few pages and its taking me so long. whats not, have been working and i get to tired to read. i read half way then fall asleep. in the morning i wake up the book is under the bed. haha.

love and i, we're great now. cause i know love cant resist not being with me. right dear. [ nie dah self proclaim. enough jannah(:] he's sick now, but he still goes to work. this boy uhh. dont know what to say anymore. we met up yesterday before i met up with my girls. and i had fun spending time with him=)

the girls were awesome, yesterday. we had lunch a Seoul garden and sue brought along Harith. so cute, walk like gangster. hahaha. so we ate and there were alot of left overs. then came the surprise. we bought sue a birthday cake. she was so touch, but didnt cried. she say, she dont show people her emotion. apee jeee sue. bnyk bedek! sue had to went home early so the 3 of us, sat at mac. we were like going bonkers. took alot of pictures and we laugh mcm nobodys world. there's too much pictures and im lazy to upload now. later later kay.

my post would be a sad one. so bare with it.

Have you ever had a moment, when suddenly everything that you have ever wanted gone just like that. And you have this empty feeling inside yourself? im having that moment. At times i know why and sometimes i just dont understand why does this happen. Whose fault is it? me, you, them, us. it was never about another person. is it worth it to leave a person you love so much because your afraid you'll hurt them in the long run? but what about those whose been together for years and years. dont they have to over come all this, why cant us? why cant you? im willing to. do you? running away from the person you love makes it harder for the both of you. the person you run a way from is trying to learn you, understand you. but you just walk off half way. it isnt fair is it? your afraid of hurting or you just cant deal with reality? which? both? i want to make this better, but you are running away far from me. please just stay cause walking away is going to make it hard.

im not ready to lose someboday or end it. cause i still feel that this is still the begining of a beautiful rs.

the boy

i pass my O's. yearp i did. L1R4 = 19. but im not satisfied with my results. i failed science, so im not able to get the course i've wanted. but there's still alot of other choices. just hopefully i get in sp, nutrition, health and wellness course. insyaallah.

everything is crumbling, i dont know why its happening. i just dont know how to tell you. hopefully, everything im going to say comes out right. im sorry. insyaallah, we'll make it trough together. i love you, still. alot.

i wish my life was different. not the people but just how much freedom i get. yeah, i have a curfew. my parents, they're strict. but i know i cant change any of it. i hate thinking of whatifs, cause i know it'll never happen. give it a few years, what, like when im 50. sometimes i hate it so much. every teenagers does. but then when we grow up and become an adult. we'll thank them for it. i think. but for now i hate it, i really really really really really do. people ask, why cant you go out at night or i wish you could go out at night. i want to, but i cant. its really saddening sometimes.

results on Monday, i think. good luck jannah. hopefully you'll get less then 20. ( its call self motivation, i think(: ) im getting weirder. i look like shit at work every time. wake up and smell the coffee luhh jannah! smile and dont give that fuck up face. i've lost abit of the jannah magic, who laugh like nobodys there and talk as if its her own house. i've lost it.

phew! what a weekend. im so drain out. on saturday i started work at 3pm and anira ended at 3pm. so i get to meet her for awhile. i did bar, and the people there were friendly. arina was nice. she's like always there to guide me. i didnt like yesterday even though i was working from 9 to 3 only. still, some are so arrogant. tk suke. i had to do POS, which shortage of 5 bucks. bummer! i dont like doing anything that has to do with money. what do you expect right, this is work. i cant wait to finish off at t2 and go to t1. one more day and im done. thank god!

i wonder when the results are coming. some say 9th, 15th, 26 luhh. im also not sure. i just hope that i get enough points to get in the course i want. FOOD SCIENCE. i want to be a dietitian.

im glad that nothing serious happen to love dad. he had an accident yesterday. you see this is the reason why i hate people who drinks. they dont think of others, just themselves. so selfish and see what happens. they get other people injured and plead not to get reported. typical.

And oh love, study hard oke. be a good boy. a few more months and you'll get your diploma. NS is coming soon, im so going to miss you. For this month we're planning to eat at i forgot-the-name. we plan every month to eat at a place which is NICE. i've yet to get my pay dear. it'll be next month. so long:( anyho, I LOVE YOU.

i have lots of pictures to upload. but all the pictures are with love. so its either he'll upload(which would take him forever to upload) or me, when i get the pictures. im hooked to this book, 'a hopeless romantic' by Harriet Evans. i borrowed it from the library. ive yet to know the ending. if your the type who loves to read love stories, you've gotta love this book. its about this lady Laura, she's hopeless romantic. she'll fall in love with any guy and say he's the one. but, ending up getting hurt. so got herself in a mess with Dan whom she tot was the one and he ended up having a pregnant girlfriend. so she decide to go on a holiday with her parents, where she met a sexy and mysterious Nick. Nick is a marquess. he's a multi-millionaire and has a beautiful house. which she didnt know at first. he has a house like in a fairytale, where there's a ball room. so i've yet to know if she's going to be with Nick or not. But i know she's already in love with him. so exciting right. i know!

i love reading. it really brings me to another world. So exciting i can feel my adrenaline rush. hahaha. im going back to my other world. im so dreamy, but i love it.

i love you baby. with you it seems like a fairytale.

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