It really fascinate me to see how people change. Like you known them since they're still wearing diapers. And then you don't see them, for like a few years. when you suddenly see them boom they changed. Like a whole lot. Sometimes i get tired of being the good girl like what people always call me. And it gets frustrating. i hate having curfews, i dont like it cause i cant do graveyard shifts at work or even finish at 11pm and go home on my own, i hate having to always be a good girl. urgh!
Love, how about getting our tongue pierced together. hahahaha.
on my 18th birthday. how? oke peer. hahaha. my friends would go mental.
A new janaa on her 18th. maybe?
♥Saturday, February 28, 2009
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I've been procrastinating to clean my room. Today i did it, at last. Got the table out and clean the dusty fan. Going Ikea soon, to get myself boxes and a new cupboard to store my stuffs(: I need a new wardrobe, my clothes are limited and same goes for my bottoms. I did the enrolment thingy. Atleast some part of it is done.
i was unconditionally in love with him
♥Wednesday, February 25, 2009
A girl can forgive, but she can never forget how much it hurts.
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im seriously shagged. Last week has been tight. Had work, outing, meeting, dates. And same goes for this week. I need my rest. so i just upload what i have and you guys figure it out. Oh, date with boyfie no pictures cause i forgot to take them. silly me(:
ouh ouh, yes. the boy and me, we're in good terms already:D im so so happy, yay us! i love you Farhan. Like what they said at work the other day Farhanlove! hahaha.
ouh ouh, yes. the boy and me, we're in good terms already:D im so so happy, yay us! i love you Farhan. Like what they said at work the other day Farhanlove! hahaha.
Outing and meeting. I scored two goals. GO JANNAH! and i sprain my ankle. now my ankle very huge:(
that day at work, we called it the high pitch day. cause everyone was talking/screaming at high pitch. funny.
♥Monday, February 16, 2009
kerana bersama mu diri ku sempurna
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love?
"Yesterday when I touched you, you were so.. hesitant, so careful, and yet still the same. Because I've hurt you too much? Is it because you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be.. quite fair. I won't contest your decision. So don't try to spare my feelings. Please just tell me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything I've done to you. Can you?".
i have great friends. They're there always making me feel better. Today i woke up, not the feeling of lost i felt, instead i felt unlove. The heart suddenly stop a beat and i started crying so badly. i couldnt fall asleep back and the night before i couldnt sleep either. I had to sleep with the light on, i felt scared. i only slept for about 3 hours. I didnt want to wake up i wanted to just sleep and never wake up or just hoping that everything is just a dream. i wish.
i went to work giving my best smile, but rynne could tell i was sad. i told her and she made me feel safe. Not just her, but with the people i work with today. with them i felt safe. felt i belong to someone. fiza told us about her relationship what she went trough for the 5 years. She said that if we are sure that he's the one regardless of what obstacle we go trough we'll be patience. And haziq told me that if yesterday was bad, today would be good. yes it was, i got a compliment from a customer for making a perfect latte. i was please with myself. but i couldnt deny, i was missing him. the thought of him would suddenly come up and i'll feel a lump in my throat. i hold back my tears.
But i cried going home. I couldnt take it. i didnt understand, i miss him so badly.
Farhan dear,
im not perfect. Im not an angel. Im not too good for you. I have my flaws and so do you. It cant be the reason. i have so many question to ask. But i cant bring myself to and i know you wouldnt answer it. i love you, still alot. i've not finish yet, loving you. It isnt enough. why are you always confuse? that, i dont understand. you, yourself knows that what is happening is hurting me. if it wasnt easy for tyou hen why do it? i want to back away and see how you lead your life without me. but i guess i was the one who cant. you want me to find someone better? among all the guys i've known your better off then them. what makes you think that your hurting me alot? i hurt you too, i know. and your a good guy and i want to be with this good guy(you). i know i cant force love. i dont even know why im doing this.
Oh god, im hurting so badly now. Im not angry at him i never was. i just wanted to be the best girlfriend he has. but i guess...........
my cousin, he's been there listening to my cries and he was and is the one who is always making me understand. He's a guy so he'll knows. And i always feel much better talking to him. cause everytime i tell him what happen i'll laugh in the end. i love him, yea my cousin. you know who you are*winks*
"Yesterday when I touched you, you were so.. hesitant, so careful, and yet still the same. Because I've hurt you too much? Is it because you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be.. quite fair. I won't contest your decision. So don't try to spare my feelings. Please just tell me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything I've done to you. Can you?".
i got this from dorcus blog(i copy2 kay. heh)
New moon.
i have great friends. They're there always making me feel better. Today i woke up, not the feeling of lost i felt, instead i felt unlove. The heart suddenly stop a beat and i started crying so badly. i couldnt fall asleep back and the night before i couldnt sleep either. I had to sleep with the light on, i felt scared. i only slept for about 3 hours. I didnt want to wake up i wanted to just sleep and never wake up or just hoping that everything is just a dream. i wish.
i went to work giving my best smile, but rynne could tell i was sad. i told her and she made me feel safe. Not just her, but with the people i work with today. with them i felt safe. felt i belong to someone. fiza told us about her relationship what she went trough for the 5 years. She said that if we are sure that he's the one regardless of what obstacle we go trough we'll be patience. And haziq told me that if yesterday was bad, today would be good. yes it was, i got a compliment from a customer for making a perfect latte. i was please with myself. but i couldnt deny, i was missing him. the thought of him would suddenly come up and i'll feel a lump in my throat. i hold back my tears.
But i cried going home. I couldnt take it. i didnt understand, i miss him so badly.
Farhan dear,
im not perfect. Im not an angel. Im not too good for you. I have my flaws and so do you. It cant be the reason. i have so many question to ask. But i cant bring myself to and i know you wouldnt answer it. i love you, still alot. i've not finish yet, loving you. It isnt enough. why are you always confuse? that, i dont understand. you, yourself knows that what is happening is hurting me. if it wasnt easy for tyou hen why do it? i want to back away and see how you lead your life without me. but i guess i was the one who cant. you want me to find someone better? among all the guys i've known your better off then them. what makes you think that your hurting me alot? i hurt you too, i know. and your a good guy and i want to be with this good guy(you). i know i cant force love. i dont even know why im doing this.
Oh god, im hurting so badly now. Im not angry at him i never was. i just wanted to be the best girlfriend he has. but i guess...........
my cousin, he's been there listening to my cries and he was and is the one who is always making me understand. He's a guy so he'll knows. And i always feel much better talking to him. cause everytime i tell him what happen i'll laugh in the end. i love him, yea my cousin. you know who you are*winks*
♥Saturday, February 14, 2009
i love Kate Nash. her songs, her hair, the way she dresses. she plays the guitar too luhh.
dont you guys agree? :D
Pen Badgley
is totally HOT!
i find guys who's innocent but not really that innocent are hot.
like him, in Gossip Girl.
get it? go figure. hahaha
Spend my saturday with Nabila, was great! we had late lunch at far east did abit of shopping, abit only. in the end we shop right nabila. we got the same belt and its freaking cheap and its super nice. haha. went to dhouby ghout, bought brownie. i surprise love with a heart shape brownie. so cute luhh the brownie. then we went tm to talk and talk. pictures.....
im jealous of nabila hp, its sidekick. the one i've always wanted.
to those who watch GG, its the same as Blair phone.
♥Thursday, February 12, 2009
i've been waking up really late this days. Dad has not been really happy about it and so does mum. Every morning they try all kind of things to make me wake up, but none of it seems to work. Like for example sprinkle water on face, pinch me, off the fan or just simply pull my leg. hahaha. but it never work. i think im getting lazy by the day, no no seconds.
i've got work today which starts at 5pm and i end at 1am. its going to be sooo tiring. i wonder who's the manager. Anira is also working today and she finish right about now, 3pm. She forgot to bring the mag!!!!! im soooooo going to kill her luhhh*evil smile*
i've got work today which starts at 5pm and i end at 1am. its going to be sooo tiring. i wonder who's the manager. Anira is also working today and she finish right about now, 3pm. She forgot to bring the mag!!!!! im soooooo going to kill her luhhh*evil smile*
♥Wednesday, February 11, 2009
today was great. we had the cinema all to ourself. seriously no kidding.
im hungry gg to eat honey star + milk + Gossip girl = Jannah happy(:
im not finish loving you
im hungry gg to eat honey star + milk + Gossip girl = Jannah happy(:
im not finish loving you
♥Tuesday, February 10, 2009
the headache is torturing me!
i hate taking the bus, it always gives me headache especially when im really really really tired.
i just cant wait for school to start. NP, yeah!
i guess im the only one in my school going there.
Well i know one person who's going there, Mike.
And ouh, mike and erdie was so happy just now, cause they got to work together.
Like gay uhhh. hahahaha.
i met anira after work and we wanted to spy on sue, but then she was having lunch.
so instead we disturb her at food culture.
i met boyfie for awhile. gawd, i miss him!
i only got a hug but it wasnt really a hug was it? hahaha. go figure.
i hate taking the bus, it always gives me headache especially when im really really really tired.
i just cant wait for school to start. NP, yeah!
i guess im the only one in my school going there.
Well i know one person who's going there, Mike.
And ouh, mike and erdie was so happy just now, cause they got to work together.
Like gay uhhh. hahahaha.
i met anira after work and we wanted to spy on sue, but then she was having lunch.
so instead we disturb her at food culture.
i met boyfie for awhile. gawd, i miss him!
i only got a hug but it wasnt really a hug was it? hahaha. go figure.
♥Sunday, February 8, 2009
This is my new baby and its just 1 year old. i got it in pink cause there was no stock for the white and black colour. The best part of this phone is that the camera is 5 mega pix and very very good. Love was like so jealous luhh. hahahaha. The way to type msg also cool cause can type like keyboard.
And i've watch bride wars. Its so funny luhh. How two friends can like fight over wedding. But the ending part was like sad. i cried, just tears in my eyes and love make it a big deal like i cried so badly. We ate at deliffrance which cause us $45+.
And i've watch bride wars. Its so funny luhh. How two friends can like fight over wedding. But the ending part was like sad. i cried, just tears in my eyes and love make it a big deal like i cried so badly. We ate at deliffrance which cause us $45+. 
♥Saturday, February 7, 2009
The closer we get with someone. The better we know them. And thus go trough alot with them. The happy, angry and sad moments. It'll teach us more about one another and we then will grow closer. Sometimes it gets really hard and you'll get to the point where you feel like giving up or just that you aren't good enough. But in fact giving up and all just shows your weak and you cant take a challenge.
i told myself to hold back the tears and go trough all this with a lot of faith
The bits and pieces of a relationship.
i told myself to hold back the tears and go trough all this with a lot of faith
The bits and pieces of a relationship.
♥Friday, February 6, 2009
Its MEREPEK!
i HATE it.
i dont tolerate getting SWEAR at of even lie at!
i HATE it.
i dont tolerate getting SWEAR at of even lie at!
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just great. blame me. make me feel as if i did something so sinful.
i just hope i dont give up, like you.
to the point when i couldnt take it anymore, im sorry.
i just hope i dont give up, like you.
to the point when i couldnt take it anymore, im sorry.
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I didnt get the course. I found out yesterday, they said it was unsuccessful. I was sad and i cried badly. (oke bedek not so badly just a few drop of tears) :( but still. haiya.
Some facts about me. Sometimes when i dont smile or give any emotion doesnt mean im not oke. Im fine perfectly fine, just that my face when i dont smile, i give this stress up face. i cant help it. And i know the if people dont know me, they'll assume im arrogant. i know, cause i get this alot from people. And again i cant help it, thats the way i am. So yar, when you see me at work not smilling, doesnt mean im stress up, tired or angry. And someone belanja me today, cant say who. hahahaha.
i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday( i got a date with baby(:)
And also saturday which is tmr.
cause im getting a new HP!!!!!!!
Got my pay today. I guess i wont spend so much. Just things which are important. And maybe on a few clothes. heee
Some facts about me. Sometimes when i dont smile or give any emotion doesnt mean im not oke. Im fine perfectly fine, just that my face when i dont smile, i give this stress up face. i cant help it. And i know the if people dont know me, they'll assume im arrogant. i know, cause i get this alot from people. And again i cant help it, thats the way i am. So yar, when you see me at work not smilling, doesnt mean im stress up, tired or angry. And someone belanja me today, cant say who. hahahaha.
i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday,
i cant wait for sunday( i got a date with baby(:)
And also saturday which is tmr.
cause im getting a new HP!!!!!!!
Got my pay today. I guess i wont spend so much. Just things which are important. And maybe on a few clothes. heee
♥Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Is it me or is it just the attitude that is making me so irritated and angry. im not so sure myself. im angry, sad and disappointed with the situation. Im trying my best to understand whats going on. But then its getting to me. the way things are. seriously im heart broken. i know i have to talk, but not now, not with the current situation.
Secondary school has ended and i guess everything else that comes together with it also ends. Leaving all good memories behind, its hard. Some are still together with me. And sue, thanks for listening.
Secondary school has ended and i guess everything else that comes together with it also ends. Leaving all good memories behind, its hard. Some are still together with me. And sue, thanks for listening.
♥Monday, February 2, 2009
Im human, everything is never good enough for me. When i was younger i never did well in school. As i grew up i realised what i wanted for my future and to give back to the community. I started to improve and it was good, i felt good. but then it wasnt enough i wanted the best, to be at the top. i did manage to get to the top, but only for awhile. And now with me not getting the course i want i feel that im ungrateful. Alhamdulilah, i got a place in poly and also something similar to what i want. But for me its not the school its the course. I have to accept the fact if i dont get the course. I could start from the basic and climb up to the top slowly. But if the DAE results shows that i got in the course i want, i am going to accept it. I know what i want and what i want to be. Its either i start from the starting line or the middle. Either way im going get my dream.
I'm glad i have baby to help me trough. I'm like going trough alot of shits right now.
I'm glad i have baby to help me trough. I'm like going trough alot of shits right now.
♥Sunday, February 1, 2009
i stayed home the whole day today. I didnt meet baby today, he got work and study date with his buds.(sound so gay. hahaha) early in the morning isa called asking if i could work today from 11 to 5pm. i said no, cause i was really sleepy and my mind didnt really registered. then when i was really awake i regreted saying no. so i stayed home the whole day. i finish my book! yay me. so i'll return them tmr and borrow another book. im a book addict(:
And ouh you guys would want to know which school im posted to, right.
although its my second choice im not happy with it.
Ngee Ann, Health Science(nursing).
i dont want to go around cleaning patience ass. ( cause i've heard from friends who took up nursing)
so im still waiting for my DAE and hopefully i'll get my
Food and Nutrition course in, Temasek poly.
if i dont, i'll just have to love the course i get and be grateful.
work hard and then find my way into being a dietician.
like what boyfie said, be grateful cause some of them cant even get into poly.
I dont think its time yet. when everything is fine i'll tell you.
And ouh you guys would want to know which school im posted to, right.
although its my second choice im not happy with it.
Ngee Ann, Health Science(nursing).
i dont want to go around cleaning patience ass. ( cause i've heard from friends who took up nursing)
so im still waiting for my DAE and hopefully i'll get my
Food and Nutrition course in, Temasek poly.
if i dont, i'll just have to love the course i get and be grateful.
work hard and then find my way into being a dietician.
like what boyfie said, be grateful cause some of them cant even get into poly.
Its our 10th monthsarry.
I love you and now this is my 10 reasons why i love you:
1. Your you
2. you always make me feel special
3. you never stop loving me
4. your wonderful
5. i always feel im apart of you in every way
6. i feel safe with you
7. your my lover, my bestfriend and my everything
8. because i know your my prince
9. cause your like this superhero whose always there to save me.
10. lastly, your my angel.
I dont think its time yet. when everything is fine i'll tell you.
