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im in school now and having f&n. i forgot to bring my thumbdrive, again. i think i should have counter for that. i've finish, and just need to edit a bit, thank god. i've been really tired this days, which i dont know why either. its really sucky to feel tired every single day and it'll result to me not having the mood to study. bummer.

im not a talker when im upset. i'm the ignore-it-in-the-hope-it'll go away type. besides, i dont like talking about what i dont like. its hard to get my feelings out and i'll just stumble with my words if i was force to. result in getting the problem unsolved and getting it worst. thats why i hate to argue. i admit i'll never win. im a sucker at telling people what i dont like when im upset. hoping that it'll go away, i just wish. i know problem cant be solve if one party doesnt talk and that would be me. i just wish i could just pretend it never happen, easy for me but what about the other party. i guess i really need to try.

anyhoos, im getting my fringe done today and maybe get hair extension after my O's.
i envy those girls with loooooooooong hair.
♥

went out with love to buke yesterday. but before that we went to watch 4bia. it was damn scary. i was gripping his arm most of the time and closing my eyes. hahaha. he still complains that it still hurts. sorry dear(: then after the movie we went to walk around. he bought a present for his cousin and shades from himself. we were walking around some more and i saw the sandals i wanted so much and it was pretty cheap cause they were having discount. love wanted to buy it for me but sadly there wasnt any size for me. so after that we went to swensen. i felt like i was about to explode cause i ate like alot, plus the ice-cream. then we headed to far east, he wanted to check out the sandals for me. we walk around and found the shop. but there wasnt my size for the black one and instead i bought the white one. then we headed home, i felt really tired in the train. hug and kiss him goodbye. reached home ard 9.50pm.

pictures

the sandal boyfie bought for me

And dearest thanks so much for the treat.

i love you and not because of all this.

but because of you only you.

well yesterday, i spend the day at kira's house. mum, sis and me buke there. while dad and bro buke at the hospital with nenek. i help her dye her hair, which was my first time doing it. hahaha. and most of the time she was screaming cause i pulled her hair. geram tau. haha. its been so long since we met and talked like there's no tomorrow. dad came and fetch us and we headed to geylang. the place was packed with people and was darn hot. walked, and saw love. he salam my dad then he went back to meet his family. i was so happy to see him, even if it was for awhile.

dad plan to go johore today and i've yet to tell love.

i love everything about them. they're awesome!

oke lets get this straight. i am not jumping to conclusion. but the truth is rather confusing and there's too many possibilities. im too lazy to count, there's too much. im rather suprise that you knew we were talking about you. and for your info, kiter dah bebual depan. betul tk if not why you know it was you kan. you have the brains use them. you ask us to talk to you personally but why was it her who send me and anira the comments why wasnt it you instead. look i have enough. i rather bury my head in books rather in this. please, you need a dictionary badly, do you know the definition of a bitch. i dont think it can be use to us. we dont go around changing, nvm. i wont say. i'll spare you the embarrassments.

And kau delete kiter semua dari friendster and the funny part is you didnt delete him. i doubt so, you would. you would want to keep as many guys as possible, right?

i dont know whats been going on and finally today everything is out. some friend eyy, i dont know. im not trying to be mean or anything. but she have change, a hell lot. maybe its just because of the the surrounding, i guess and the other thing, why cant she just make a day with us. it was just 1 day. i mean she've been seeing them alot and rarely sees us. why not tell them to cancel it cause its us and you know how hard it is to meet up. like i've said things will change.

your different now, i dont know whats going on with your life. but please dont forget us.

its been rough. its my prelims week and im busy most of the time studying and doing lots of practices. i've finished my combine humans papers. its was rather manageable. ouh and good luck to my lovelies for their geography paper today which they are doing right this moment.

i woke up at around 10am, bath and did my math. i've yet to start on my f&n and biology. my head feels heavy like it weights 1kg. im meeting love later at his workplace, which i don't even know if he is even looking forward to it.

im gg to continue mugging.

I've just finish revising on history, china. a really BORING chapter. if only this people would have not argue and get along well. i wouldn't have to study history. i guess I'll practice math next then do my bio ten years series. and dad said we going break fast at the hospital with my grandad. yes my grandad is still in the hospital. the tumor got worst, so the doctor cant let him go home yet. i just hope he recover soon. i don't want to celebrate raya in the hospital.

went out with love today. guess what, we took public transport. yes, PUBLIC TRANSPORT. where you have to use your ez-link kan dear. hahaha. we went to survey bikes cause his friends wanted to get bike. it was darn hot and we had to walk under the sun, no choice. after that love taught me math. i was really piss, with myself. i couldn't even understand a simple question and he had to repeat it like 3 or 4 times. i was about to cry and at last i understand the question. thanks god. so you see, i really need all the time i have to study.

And love thanks so much for teaching me over and over again until i understand the question. and also for tolerating with my attitude. i love you ( v )

Amazing 6 years old girl singing.

A song that will bring you to tears.
Why do they have to abuse childrens who are innocent.

i just want my life to be just the way it was. i dont want anything to do with you. hotstuff? hotstuff my foot! you shuldnt have come back. you should have gone to ite. you'll like it better there where you can get all the guy you want bitch!

what do you want. why do you bother so much about my life? havent you had enough of yours. i hope you become so thin that even the bangla will vomit looking at you. that even your mum cant even believe your her daughter in the first place cause you've been fooling around with so many guys.

i should be studying now. but here i am in front of my comp. god, prelims are next week!! i keep asking myself if i have really studied or what i've been doing is enough. i want this to end quick but at the same time im not ready for it. am i ready or am i not? this is hard:(

people around me see me as hard working. i always get this from my classmates in class, 'semangat uhh kau'. and my teachers expects me get really good grades. but when i get my results it doesn't really shows and its really humiliating. right sue, remember when we talk about this? why is it really hard for me to get what i want when i already did my best. does this prove that im not trying hard enough or i need to really really push myself this time. why is it always me, why?? why aren't i born with brains with high IQ? why am i so slow?

can i do this?

meet anira at 12 to teman her do her check up. turn out she couldn't do her check up at polyclinic. we went to another doctor and she didn't bring enough cash. so we ended up not doing any check up. make me wake up so early. anira you owe me. hahaha. i want..........

went to boyfie school and he taught me math while he did his work. yea did his work play neopet eyy. hahaha. the lab was really kecoh. i was alone, cause he went to pray and did his project at the workshop. i finish up my math and then we went to ikea. and today is the first day of fasting and its me & farhan's 5th. happy 5th monthsarry dear. i love you ( v )

suppose to be helping me with math, but he's sleeping. well, i love him still. heh

and yes, he's to obsess with his hair!

ikea. i shuld have worn shoes. sheessh.

oke im going to get back with my history. RUSSIA here i come! Tsar your such an ass.

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