im sorry
i dont tell how i feel staright up or on the spot. i take time
to tell. its just in me.
i gather my feelings and write it somewhere
when i think its time to tell. like this blog. thats why it existed.
i cant tell my feelings
face to face or even on the phone.
maybe thats why when you ask me yesterday why was i angry
and i said i didnt know.
cause yes i didnt know what to say. i didnt know how
i was feeling at that point of time.
i need time to think. im a slow learner and i absorb things
slowly and understand them even slower.
im born this way. and i fucking hate it.
i hate being the last one to understand stuff. maybe thats the reason.
why i fucking flunk my mid-year so badly.
