im tired of this.
im tired of crying to sleep.
im tired of crying waking up.
i cant stop myself from crying.
it hurts so badly. too much.
i cried like someone has just died.
like its the end of the world.
but all i needed was you to be there holding me close.
but for now i could just dream of it.
cause i now you wouldnt even want to look me in the eye.
be it hug me tightly.
im off to school. crying again. with big puffy eyes.
i look like a mad women. thank you.
i guess i am one. everyone run.
♥Monday, June 30, 2008
♥Friday, June 27, 2008
1)How many children do you want?
[ maybe 2 or 3 will do(: ]
2)Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
[ Europe ]
3)Whats your favourite thing to do?
[ play my guitar. yay! :D ]
4)Do you think money can buy happiness?
[ not really but you still need money to live and be happy ]
5)Who was the last person that cry like a baby infront of you?
[ i think it was anira, its been a long time since i see anyone cry ]
6)Have you ever been regretted in life?
[ yes ]
7)What are you afraid to lose?
[ seth dear and pride ]
8)If you win one million, what would you do?
[ go around the world and have a good life ]
9)What do you dream of doing in the future?
[ a food doctor; dietitionist ( i think i spell it right ) ]
10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
[ Fitri; funny, a very good listener and she's good with hair. heh(: ]
11)What makes you happy?
[ Farhan and my nonaas ]
12)What type of person do you hate most?
[ thier EGO ]
13)If you could have a superpower,what would it be?
[ be invisible and fly ]
14)Which season do you like?
the season when i get to be happy ]
15)What do you think it is the most important in your life ?
[ ALOT ]
16)If it's the end of the world ,what will be your last wish?
[ to be forgiven ]
17)If you have a chance to choose, would you like to go back in time?
[ not really. the past really suck. ]
18)What is the ONE thing you want it badly NOW ?
[ Seth hug :(]
19)What is your favourite person on earth?
[ my boyfriend(: ]
20)What do you do if you get cheated?
[ kill him :D ]
*Instructions:remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question ,make it a total of 20 questions then tag 8 pple in your list, list them out at the end of this post.Notify he/she through their chatterbox.
1. seth 2. anira 3. suhaila 4. sherry-fah 5. nabila 6. nicola 7. dayne 8. ???
[ maybe 2 or 3 will do(: ]
2)Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
[ Europe ]
3)Whats your favourite thing to do?
[ play my guitar. yay! :D ]
4)Do you think money can buy happiness?
[ not really but you still need money to live and be happy ]
5)Who was the last person that cry like a baby infront of you?
[ i think it was anira, its been a long time since i see anyone cry ]
6)Have you ever been regretted in life?
[ yes ]
7)What are you afraid to lose?
[ seth dear and pride ]
8)If you win one million, what would you do?
[ go around the world and have a good life ]
9)What do you dream of doing in the future?
[ a food doctor; dietitionist ( i think i spell it right ) ]
10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
[ Fitri; funny, a very good listener and she's good with hair. heh(: ]
11)What makes you happy?
[ Farhan and my nonaas ]
12)What type of person do you hate most?
[ thier EGO ]
13)If you could have a superpower,what would it be?
[ be invisible and fly ]
14)Which season do you like?
the season when i get to be happy ]
15)What do you think it is the most important in your life ?
[ ALOT ]
16)If it's the end of the world ,what will be your last wish?
[ to be forgiven ]
17)If you have a chance to choose, would you like to go back in time?
[ not really. the past really suck. ]
18)What is the ONE thing you want it badly NOW ?
[ Seth hug :(]
19)What is your favourite person on earth?
[ my boyfriend(: ]
20)What do you do if you get cheated?
[ kill him :D ]
*Instructions:remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question ,make it a total of 20 questions then tag 8 pple in your list, list them out at the end of this post.Notify he/she through their chatterbox.
1. seth 2. anira 3. suhaila 4. sherry-fah 5. nabila 6. nicola 7. dayne 8. ???
♥
i hate this week like really terribly hate it. with school and stuff. First week of school and its really bad. worst. grrrrrr!
♥Monday, June 23, 2008
school started today. the very first period was mock test. yay! -_-" two period of english comprehension. lucky aren't we. and more news for us.
For biology, Mr Goh's not teaching us anymore. its always us. no fair. when we were in sec 4, for the other half of the year we had to change teacher and now in sec 5 also. why is it always us. and you teachers blame us for not performing well. whose fault is it anyway. school couldn't get any worst.
all the sec 5N had to stay back for some briefing. the principle and Mr Fatul lectured us for not doing well for our mid-year. we did much more worst then last year batch. great eyy. but in a way, it did boost my confidence to really study hard. 9 more weeks to prelim and less then 100 days to O's. arrghhhhh!
the briefing finish at 3pm and i had to go straight for Malay dance. was really hungry but canteen was already close by then. aren't we just lucky. first day gini. gerek eyyyy. abg O's came at 4.30pm. thank god. well at least i have time to get my steps back. soon he got on with the formation. all of us kene maki. and he blamed it on us, when he was the one who keep changing the steps. we ended at 7pm. my blisters getting worst D:
haven't been talking to love much. school started and there's so much to do in school. i didn't even have time to msg him. everytime i tried. the teacher already came in class. with the briefing after school. and then i had to go straight to Malay dance. when i finish my dance he has work. there's always something that's keep us not able to contact much. and now I'm really tired. i don't think i can wait for him to finish work at 11pm. but I'll try to stay awake. i have to do my VITAMAX. its like a math vitamin for us to keep our momentum going. for each of us he will give a worksheet base on what kind of topic we're weak in every on week. thanks Mr wan for the effort to help us(:
going to start mugging. even though im really tired. at least a bit will do.
PS: I'm sorry for not msging you that much. i still do love you bby.
( he just called. yay! terubat rindu sekejap, oke dah rindu balik. hahah )
For biology, Mr Goh's not teaching us anymore. its always us. no fair. when we were in sec 4, for the other half of the year we had to change teacher and now in sec 5 also. why is it always us. and you teachers blame us for not performing well. whose fault is it anyway. school couldn't get any worst.
all the sec 5N had to stay back for some briefing. the principle and Mr Fatul lectured us for not doing well for our mid-year. we did much more worst then last year batch. great eyy. but in a way, it did boost my confidence to really study hard. 9 more weeks to prelim and less then 100 days to O's. arrghhhhh!
the briefing finish at 3pm and i had to go straight for Malay dance. was really hungry but canteen was already close by then. aren't we just lucky. first day gini. gerek eyyyy. abg O's came at 4.30pm. thank god. well at least i have time to get my steps back. soon he got on with the formation. all of us kene maki. and he blamed it on us, when he was the one who keep changing the steps. we ended at 7pm. my blisters getting worst D:
haven't been talking to love much. school started and there's so much to do in school. i didn't even have time to msg him. everytime i tried. the teacher already came in class. with the briefing after school. and then i had to go straight to Malay dance. when i finish my dance he has work. there's always something that's keep us not able to contact much. and now I'm really tired. i don't think i can wait for him to finish work at 11pm. but I'll try to stay awake. i have to do my VITAMAX. its like a math vitamin for us to keep our momentum going. for each of us he will give a worksheet base on what kind of topic we're weak in every on week. thanks Mr wan for the effort to help us(:
going to start mugging. even though im really tired. at least a bit will do.
PS: I'm sorry for not msging you that much. i still do love you bby.
( he just called. yay! terubat rindu sekejap, oke dah rindu balik. hahah )
♥Friday, June 20, 2008
i was suppose to bake cookies today. but my aunt came, along with little syukrina. so i didn't bake any. maybe on Sunday. she played painting with my sister and she got paint all over her hand. how cute. she ate the grape, was sour. her face totally change. hahha. she came running into my room and touch all my stuff. she saw the bottle of sunsilk hair cream. took some of it and use it on her hair. funny luhh she. then she saw my guitar and starts strumming on it. maybe she could be the next Taylor swift. chey!!
going out with love tomorrow. we're going to catch a movie with his friends. i cant wait to see him. met him awhile just now before he went to work. he look so cute with the hat. i love you farhan(:
♥Thursday, June 19, 2008
i smell, the smell of farhan. imysm.
♥Wednesday, June 18, 2008
last day of dance practice. phew. the sec two's really got it from abg O's. until one of them cried. please eyy don't show attitude. if you guys really want to dance. dance with an open heart. if you think its really a drag coming to practice. please don't come at all. safe yourself from getting humiliated. we got our formation. and not all are dancing. its really hard, cause abg O's got really pissed with us. its not that i don't get the step. i need time to digest. hopefully we can finish the formation by Monday. get done and over with. the rehearsal will be on 26 jun and the actually performance on 9 July. fast huh. very.
we finished at 3. love came and fetch me. it was raining. he didn't have to. but he came in spite of the rain. awwww. he got wet. like really really. i felt so guilty. we didn't talk much. i miss him already.
my leg hurts especially the left side and my foot are getting worst. the blisters. its hard to walk without having to feel pain.
we finished at 3. love came and fetch me. it was raining. he didn't have to. but he came in spite of the rain. awwww. he got wet. like really really. i felt so guilty. we didn't talk much. i miss him already.
my leg hurts especially the left side and my foot are getting worst. the blisters. its hard to walk without having to feel pain.
♥Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Just got back from dance practice and im really shagged. 3 straight days of dance practice. waduh! I'm getting blisters on my feet. sakit seyh. D: we're doing zapin. lots of turning and jumping. waaahh! abg o's is really getting on us. today they're like only 6 dancers. all the seniors. the juniors didn't came. was suppose to have our formation today. but we didn't. please come. our rehearsal is just next week. tmr's dance, wear socks can?? :D
im going to rest and put my foot in water.
(:
im going to rest and put my foot in water.
(:
♥Sunday, June 15, 2008
sending my sister to madrasah was a nightmare. seriously. they couldn't stop fighting. when they've already gone. i was like THANK GOD. at last. so later I'm going out with kira and mamat to suntec. then after that not sure. maybe go somewhere ard town or just anywhere. gg to get ready now.
bergembira
i sayang you boyfriend.
:D
bergembira
i sayang you boyfriend.
:D
♥Saturday, June 14, 2008
thats dad's car. my cousin took it.
stop by for some lemang and coconut juice. yummy!
and thats where we stayed
yes adek! peace baby! heh :D
we had to walk a bridge to get to our apartment. pfffttt!
Mcm kat france kan. its call the colmar tropical.
Ini keluarga saya
we played bowling. yes we did. and we're deciding which ball to use.enjoy the pictures people
im going to baked cheese cupcake on Monday. yay!
:D
♥Friday, June 13, 2008
i feel down for no particular reason, maybe i do know why. but I'm not going to say. naahh! its hard to describe. what does it mean when suddenly you have this I'm-not-good-enough-I'm-such-a-loser-who-doesn't-go-out-much feeling means??
sometimes when you look at people and see how wonderful their lifes are you tend to compare to yours. and you'll feel really bad about yourself. everyone have this moments right. I'm sure you all have. it hard to run away from reality. sometimes i feel like staying in my dreams and never go back to reality. cause in my dreams every things is wonderful and you don't have to go trough rough moments. like you do in reality. life's not perfect.
i have not finish my coursework. HAVE NOT! and teacher asking us to cook on Monday. I'm going to die! half of the dish I've decide to cook haven't been practice yet. arrrggghhh! panic! there still development needed to be edited and do my diet analyser and my recipe analyser for my decision making. how how how????? teacher called and ask why i haven't submit my recipe. i already did. pffffttt. there's still the second coursework. lets not think about it yet. hopefully i'll finish my task on time. amin.
haven't been doing my studying. brought stuff to study during the vacation. but i didn't even take a lot at it. berat kan bag ajer. shheesshh. I'm starting to get worried by the minute thinking about my O's which is like in 3 month time.
PS: i miss you. your really quiet today.
i need my daily dosage of green tea
:D
sometimes when you look at people and see how wonderful their lifes are you tend to compare to yours. and you'll feel really bad about yourself. everyone have this moments right. I'm sure you all have. it hard to run away from reality. sometimes i feel like staying in my dreams and never go back to reality. cause in my dreams every things is wonderful and you don't have to go trough rough moments. like you do in reality. life's not perfect.
i have not finish my coursework. HAVE NOT! and teacher asking us to cook on Monday. I'm going to die! half of the dish I've decide to cook haven't been practice yet. arrrggghhh! panic! there still development needed to be edited and do my diet analyser and my recipe analyser for my decision making. how how how????? teacher called and ask why i haven't submit my recipe. i already did. pffffttt. there's still the second coursework. lets not think about it yet. hopefully i'll finish my task on time. amin.
haven't been doing my studying. brought stuff to study during the vacation. but i didn't even take a lot at it. berat kan bag ajer. shheesshh. I'm starting to get worried by the minute thinking about my O's which is like in 3 month time.
PS: i miss you. your really quiet today.
i need my daily dosage of green tea
:D
♥Thursday, June 12, 2008
was supposed to come back on friday. but dad had something on tmr. so here i am. back in singapore! yay. Ive been looking forward to this day. i really miss Seth ALOT!
well the holidays was pretty great. not as fun. cause most of the time i was missing my boyfriend. but mum haven't been nice this days. she really gets on my nerves sometimes. especially on the first day when we were going pahang. well she still have to accept the fact that I'm her daughter like how i have accept the fact that she's my mum. geeezzz.
your just different. Ive never miss someone so much, like how i missed you. i never love someone so much, like how i love you. and getting back the love that Ive been wanting for from you. you love me as much as i do for you. that's really means alot. the 5 days that I'm gone, i never knew that you would miss me this much. cause I've never got someone missing me as much as you do. I'm glad that your my boyfriend. i love you.
will update the holiday pictures soon.
i cant wait to meet you this saturday love.
:D
well the holidays was pretty great. not as fun. cause most of the time i was missing my boyfriend. but mum haven't been nice this days. she really gets on my nerves sometimes. especially on the first day when we were going pahang. well she still have to accept the fact that I'm her daughter like how i have accept the fact that she's my mum. geeezzz.
your just different. Ive never miss someone so much, like how i missed you. i never love someone so much, like how i love you. and getting back the love that Ive been wanting for from you. you love me as much as i do for you. that's really means alot. the 5 days that I'm gone, i never knew that you would miss me this much. cause I've never got someone missing me as much as you do. I'm glad that your my boyfriend. i love you.
will update the holiday pictures soon.
i cant wait to meet you this saturday love.
:D
♥Sunday, June 8, 2008
yes today is the day. which im not really looking forward to. its suppose to be a family 'vacation'. but im not ready to go yet. 3 more hours before i leave Singapore for 5 days. anira and sue have already gone. they're going to KL for their geog trip. i guess they already reach Malaysia. hopefully afiq and hanif dont come back a mat rempit. hahaha. i just woke up. and have not taken my bath. i know eeewwww right. im going to after i finish this post. the last post until after i come back. i will try to enjoy this 'vacation' but i wont promise. i'll try to msg you when i'm there love.
i'm already missing you
='(
i'm already missing you
='(
♥Saturday, June 7, 2008
today i meet love. the last time I'm going to see him before i go tmr:( went to meet anira first to take my shirt and then we met up with his friends to eat. very funny bunch of people. I'm not really use to being around his friends yet. so i didn't talk much. they are really nice people.
after eating we went to buy some stuff. then we went to tampines mart to get donuts for my sister. he walk me home and we didn't talk much. guess we're just enjoying our presence together. before we had to go our separate ways. i hug him really tightly not wanting to let go. ( which i still have to ) i almost cried, but i didn't. then we kissed goodbye. how i wish there wasn't any goodbye when I'm with him.
I'm not ready to go. I'm not ready to not seeing him and not hearing his voice every night before i sleep. i know its not like a year that I'm gone. but still, its 5 freaking days without him. Gaaahhhh!
to my dearest
I'll be away for 5 days. you take care when I'm not around. be a good boy oke. I'm going to miss you badly. how i wish i could just hold just now and not let you go. I'll be looking forward to the day I'll be home. i love you like the stars in the sky♥
♥Friday, June 6, 2008
woke up late. but still have to go to school-_- i took my time and the gang had to wait. tkpe dah lambat. lambat kan sekali sudah. haha. so reached inter at 7.30am. had mac for breakfast. and i was still in the i-just-wake-up mood. all the stuff that came out from me was crap. and the gang couldn't stop laughing at me. they were talking about Teman Tapi Mesra. so i said, TTP kan. wth! its was suppose to be TTM. ape seyh TTP janaa. see what i mean.
went to cheers and bought CHOCOLATES. then went to school. we were like 45 minutes late. teacher couldn't be bother anymore. i can tell. school was boring overall.
didnt meet love today. he's working. imhsm.
having a terrible cramp now. go away cramp. go away. stupid PMS. get a life.
and ajin. the song you made. i got really addicted to it. like woooooooaaaaaaaaahhhh! AWESOME!
love's working right now. i'll go do the history essay. already did bits of coursework. thank good. do abit of math and understand bio. heredity is interesting. but its fucking complicated!
& pack my stuff for sunday.
went to cheers and bought CHOCOLATES. then went to school. we were like 45 minutes late. teacher couldn't be bother anymore. i can tell. school was boring overall.
didnt meet love today. he's working. imhsm.
having a terrible cramp now. go away cramp. go away. stupid PMS. get a life.
and ajin. the song you made. i got really addicted to it. like woooooooaaaaaaaaahhhh! AWESOME!
love's working right now. i'll go do the history essay. already did bits of coursework. thank good. do abit of math and understand bio. heredity is interesting. but its fucking complicated!
& pack my stuff for sunday.
♥Thursday, June 5, 2008
the two jasons went to school with us today. how cool. next time bring whole class. since our class only have 20 students-_-" pathetic kan. so we did another chem practical. this time its was pretty easy. nono. it was damn easy luhh. hahaha. f&n was like I've-got-nothing-to-do period for me. cause i didnt bring my stuff to do my coursework. great kan. meet love after school. spend time with him and then he send me home.
♥
i have never forgotten you guys. never will. i love you all to bits. its just that we're not in the same school anymore. and we cant spend time together like how we use to. like those times in class when we played the game( writing on the paper game) until we didn't even realise it was time for us to go home. those times when all we did was talk crap. remember the constipation thing hafiz. and also when you put the tissue in farhan ear and saw how reacted. how i can i ever forget you guys. all the times after school and had our lunch at cs. and the time when we celebrated farhan,wati and anira birthday. we got all covered with chocolate cake. crazy moments. i really miss spending time with all of you. hafiz don't ever say aku lupe kawan. i never did. trust me. aku sayang krg alot oke♥
Seth dear, im going off in two days time. im going to miss you alot. truckloads. be a good boy oke. janaaa loves you♥
oreo-ing:D
♥
yesterday was great. Syaza had her 7th birthday. it was mango cake! yummy! slurrrrrrrrpps. and the cupcakes look pretty. i didn't eat cause there was too much cream. i don't eat cream. i think its fattening. don't you think so?? i do. boyfriend came right on time, when they were singing the birthday song. im glad he came. the kids were really noisy, always disturb him. hahaha. and the mums. they're always been the nosiest one. mcm satu tahun tk jumpe gitu kan. mothers.
oke, i want to get back on my f&n coursework. but, i forgot to bring my thumb drive and my stuff for f&n. great eh!
pfffftttt.
30 more mins until i meet boyfriend.
yay!
ily dear♥
oke, i want to get back on my f&n coursework. but, i forgot to bring my thumb drive and my stuff for f&n. great eh!
pfffftttt.
30 more mins until i meet boyfriend.
yay!
ily dear♥
♥Wednesday, June 4, 2008
yesterday was awesome. i've said awesome again and anira im sure my computer screen will NOT go blank. hahaha. keep your mouth close if not i add more sugar to it.
sue and ainy couldn't follow us. so it was just me, ira and wati. we went downtown and went to the arcade. we played this game, where you have to scope the sweets and hopefully alot will come out. hahaha. we waited and look at it. mcm small kids tk pernah makan gule-gule. hahaha. but it was great fun. especially with my girls:D
school was oke. we did practicals for biology and chemistry.
i've learn that doing practical for enzymes are really frustrating. cause sometimes the results wont come out as what it suppose to. and why in the first place they want us to do it. ppfffffttt. stupid bio person who ask us to do practical on enzymes.
pepsin can work in neutral medium, but not as good as in acidic medium
and
trypsin breaks down milk.
( and i still remember them. yay! )
this is what we learn today and also for f&n which have been repeated since sec 3 over and over and over and over again. i think it has already been planted in my brain. great!
what i love about chemistry is all the colours we get when we mix chemicals together. im so amazed and i feel like a scientist when i do my chem practical. hahah MCM PHM janaa!
lighted splint : hydrogen
glowing splint : oxygen
lime water : carbon dioxide
litmus paper : ammonia gas
( will have to memorise that. i already did(: )
going to cousin house later and boyfriend will be there. cant wait!
ily Seth♥
sue and ainy couldn't follow us. so it was just me, ira and wati. we went downtown and went to the arcade. we played this game, where you have to scope the sweets and hopefully alot will come out. hahaha. we waited and look at it. mcm small kids tk pernah makan gule-gule. hahaha. but it was great fun. especially with my girls:D
school was oke. we did practicals for biology and chemistry.
i've learn that doing practical for enzymes are really frustrating. cause sometimes the results wont come out as what it suppose to. and why in the first place they want us to do it. ppfffffttt. stupid bio person who ask us to do practical on enzymes.
pepsin can work in neutral medium, but not as good as in acidic medium
and
trypsin breaks down milk.
( and i still remember them. yay! )
this is what we learn today and also for f&n which have been repeated since sec 3 over and over and over and over again. i think it has already been planted in my brain. great!
what i love about chemistry is all the colours we get when we mix chemicals together. im so amazed and i feel like a scientist when i do my chem practical. hahah MCM PHM janaa!
lighted splint : hydrogen
glowing splint : oxygen
lime water : carbon dioxide
litmus paper : ammonia gas
( will have to memorise that. i already did(: )
going to cousin house later and boyfriend will be there. cant wait!
ily Seth♥
♥Monday, June 2, 2008
the day started sour. yesterday Seth and i didn't end the day good. and the matter was brought forward to today. im not going to elaborate about what happened. no point. everything is already cool between us.
meet Seth after he finishes school. he wasn't in the mood. cause when i went to meet him. he was smoking and telling me about his supervisor. he was pissed VERY VERY pissed. i just let him talk and i listen. told him to relax.
we went to take his uniform. he got the job a fish & co. yay! im happy for you dear. see i told you they would call(: went to meet wati and mok. funny people. hahaha.
So we went to food culture to eat. well i didnt get to eat. eerrrr. i mean i did eat. but had a hard time eating cause Seth couldnt stop making me laugh. hahaha. that was like the best thing that happened today luhh. and im glad i made him smile.
so yea this is the happy moments that happened today. was the greatest i can say. especially the time with him.
ily dear(: ♥
meet Seth after he finishes school. he wasn't in the mood. cause when i went to meet him. he was smoking and telling me about his supervisor. he was pissed VERY VERY pissed. i just let him talk and i listen. told him to relax.
we went to take his uniform. he got the job a fish & co. yay! im happy for you dear. see i told you they would call(: went to meet wati and mok. funny people. hahaha.
So we went to food culture to eat. well i didnt get to eat. eerrrr. i mean i did eat. but had a hard time eating cause Seth couldnt stop making me laugh. hahaha. that was like the best thing that happened today luhh. and im glad i made him smile.
so yea this is the happy moments that happened today. was the greatest i can say. especially the time with him.
ily dear(: ♥
♥
have you ever had those moments. when you have so much to say and tell. but you don't know how to put it in words. and you feel so frustrated. well I'm having that moments now. so bye.
